~Bravo!!!~

觉得自己的付出只是为了让你们开心。。。

2012-02-15T22:03:00.003+08:00

明明知道付出不可以要求回报
可是。。。
偶尔，为其他人付出了。。。
也希望别人能够知道~
而不是当你是透明的。。。
有时觉得我受够了~
不想再为别人付出了。。。行么？
觉得自己的付出只是为了让你们开心。。。
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想通了。。。
也不会不开心了~
不要再留恋了。。。
看着你。。。
累了。。。
我不想见到你。。。
跟我保持距离，好吗？
给我时间忘记你，好吗？
不然。。。我很辛苦~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

避开就是唯一的办法吗?

2012-02-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

just back from camp yesterday
ahhhh~
very tired~
slept from 11pm-8am dis morning...
then 9am slept till 10 something..
woke up then slpt till 11 smthing again
LOL
IMMA PIG!!!!
what to do?
too tired~
cnt slp during camp~
first nite....was a nite mare!!
feel like din slp at all...
then second nite....
slp kinda late but wake up very early!!!
hmmm.....besides tired...actually it was fun
coz lots of ppl dis time :)
but because of something....so...err....
half half la...dunno how to say...
la la la la la la~
btwn....during camp...
lam asked me one question...
LOL...dunno how to answer....
maybe should really consider bout the question....
since....i've go through it so long d~
hmmmm....
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好累噢！
已经不懂要怎么做了。。。
难道，避开就是唯一的办法吗？
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tmr's valentine's day!!
LOL....to all the couples....
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and to the single one...no worries...
u'll find one soon ^^
ppl celebrate valentine's day at cinema vf movie...
then candle light dinner...chocolate and flowers
i celebrate valentine's day at training...haha...vf my friends :)
~B@dgirlkar3n~

dunno what new year is dis??!!

2012-02-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

dis year's CNY really is the worst new year ever!!!!
nearly everyone in my hse got prob
mummy,brother,nephew and sis in law sick...
i sprain my knee and sick also
ma de~
what new year is dis??
what happen har????
tai sui??
i din kena also ah!!!
arggggggg~
stupid knee...
make me cnt go training...
stamina 200% drop liao~
next week got camp sm more...
really dun think i can tahan.... :(
hmmmm....
so fast and so fast~
CNY is going to over soon...
dis cming mon last day~
aiksssss
hvn finish taking ang pao la!!!
:'(
nvm...tmr go li ling hse take!!! :DDDDD
:P
#########
dunno what happen today...
pp de~
weird weird de~
haixxxx
~B@dgirlkar3n~

2012-01-26T13:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
may this dragon year bring all of us
with good health,wealth,luck,happiness&prosperity!!! :)
dis year CNY dun hv much mood actually...
but kinda happy that the first 2 days
have LOTS of FUN with my cousins,nephews&niece
haha...having fun...GAMBLING!!! :D
22/1/12(sun)when everyone is hving their reunion dinner
i'm hving kfc at home...alone with my doggie,chloe
SAD!!!
coz i dun wanna go to my ah so's grandma hse to eat steamboat
LOL
i rather eat and watch mv alone at home
then first day went to bro's god mum's hse....
then go to grandma hse(mum side)
nite gammbling vf cousins,nephews and niece
tue all relatives(dad side) come to my hse and take ang pao
was quite tired~so i slept! :(
and i missed the gambling session....
tot dat nite still gt time to gamble...
manatauuuuu~after that we've steamboat
every 2nd day of chinese new year we all also gt steamboat
of coz dis year gt also(except got 1 year smmthing BAD happen)
then during the steamboat....i chat,talk and laugh vf my cousins...
haha....it was the BEST TIME EVERRRR AND EVER!!!!!
coz most of the time i will be quite boring...
but dis year....chu er was FUN!
after steamboat...need to help clean and all...
so busy till kinda late...near 12 or 12 smthing d...
i guess...then went back...
so couldnt gamble also :(
T.T
and ystdy....whole day STUCK at home watching digimon,pokemon and mv oni
SIEN!BORING!!
just now went to training,gym
tot after that will go shopping vf cindy..
manatauuuu she gt tuition....
HAIXXXXX
MUST WAIT TILL TMR D!!!
T.T
sad~ SIEN DIE ME LIAO!!!
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i hope that dis cny wont let me gain more weights....if not i'll FAINT!!!!
:(
~B@dgirlkar3n~

dun ban so fast la

2012-01-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

found dis in fb's link
haha....
feel like what a fren always told me...
but i wanna tell her...
dat dun "ban" so fast la...
gv sm time ^^
有些事情，
从一开始就意味着结束，
从一开始就知道没有结果，
那是不是就不让它开始呢？
如果害怕失去就放弃拥有的权利，
那么人生好像也就失去了意义。
~B@dgirlkar3n~

muscles and stamina not up to the standard~

2012-01-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

haizzz...
few days didnt update blog d...
LOL
last sat,went to qb vf cindy&suk ching
bought few clothes only...
but money like disappear so fast
haha....
but going out vf frens...
time past so FASTTT!!
it's so FUN!!!
wahahahahaha....
coz we can talk...laugh...jokes...
gv opinion...test clothes...
choose clothes....shop and walk tgt
unlike vf parents....u knw?
especially mum....LOL
####
yesterday...or should i say dis 2 days...
i dunno what happen to me
but i just dun feel right!!!
mostly i feel i can tahan during training...
but dis 2 days....just...
CANNOT!!!
arrgggg~
reli because not enough blood??
or because i din improve at all????
my muscles....stamina...
not up to the standard at all...
hmmmm~
kinda pek chek nia~
today...gym....was so so SO SO SO excited before it start
tot we'll did smthing like last 2 weeks...
manatau~it's SO SO MUCHIEEE TOUGHER!!!!!!
hand muscle was so pain now~~
and my back~~
and my leg muscle~~~~~
argggg~
dis thurs gonna be worst...i guess
boon chong sir.....plsss~
discount a bit...
coz i wanna have a nice time during CNY
it just less than a week...
pls!! :) tq ^^
going to qb tmr...again
LOL
went there dunno hw many times d dis month...
haha....
going to watch jack and jill...haha...
long time din watch mv d...hehehehe
~B@dgirlkar3n~

once a betrayer....u always are!

2012-01-12T23:11:00.003+08:00

eh...pls la~
dun act like i did wrong smthing la,k??
u're the one who done wrong!
i just dun wan to scold u b***h nia!
so that we'll have more space~
dun act like non of ur business...
ya...maybe i'm wrong
part of my mistake is
THAT I TOLD U EVERYTHING AND SO TRUST U!!!
dats the part that i regret the most!!!!!!!!
regret knwing u~
and telling u so many secrets
nah~fine~
I don't think we're frens anymore...
no...NO MORE!
actually i tot dat i will feel sad...
HAHAHA...but i DIDN'T! :P
maybe u're nt worth for me to feel sad at all??
haha....i will totally delete u from my life
don't worry :)
once a betrayer....u always are~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

I STILL CAN GROW TALLLLLLLL!!!!

2012-01-11T22:08:00.004+08:00

hmm....
time to blog...
mon went to work
vf sir and suk ching at kuang hwa
LOL...kinda fun...hahahaha...
most important is got money mar... :D
~~
tue,yesterday,got physical test
LOL
the MOST happy thing is my height,i guess??
:D
grow 0.5cm taller...I STILL CAN GROW TALLL!!!!!
WAHAHHAHAHAHA
I'M NOW 170.5CM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
height that most girls want??? :DDDD
girls...dun envy! :P
bout weight leh?
for me ok also d la...haha...
then the test ah...i manage to jump over 2m...hehe...
dis is the distance that i want to jump since last time...
next time wan jump more far d~
then others....hmm....for me i feel......
dunno~haha....BUT I WILL DO BETTER!!!
at least must go to level 8 next time!!!!!!!
for yoyo test....yes!!!!!!
and i wanna jump higher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
la la la la la la~
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dis afternoon was suppose to go ptpl for the orientation
but.....but...BUT......
I WAS SO LAZY TO GO!!!!!! :D
coz dis morn went to cgl to take my original spm cert
and eat char bee hoon vf liling&jinqi...
then after dat go to tesco...bought some stuff...
then...lazy d lo...haha...
between...sick d...
LOL
dunno good or not good also
sien nia~
stupid FLU!!! :(
~B@adgirlkar3n~

my face like horse face meh?

2012-01-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

aiyor...
how can like dat de?
why my parents ask me to eat one ah??
wan me bcm dua bui du mie?
ppl eat less nia say me d...
always eat less eat less....
face bcm like "horse" face d
problem body fat mar....
yorr~
sui de~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

should stay on what we've choose~

2012-01-05T22:28:00.005+08:00

today....SIPEK MOODY!!!!!
arggg~
pun teh hao hao de...
FTX class also ok de...can chase tiok
then FAU time...abit boring...but still try to understand...
but then the lecturer gv us sm MCQ to do...
out of 15,i got oni 7 correct...
=.="
that was very BASIC!!!!
argggg~
and she said if we got below 8...
better dun take dis paper...
coz basic very bad
T.T
i think whole class i'm the only one taking FAU
was thinking the whole afternoon...
did i choose the wrong paper??
shouldn't i take FFM???
why i take audit exam???
WHY???!!
i din knw also...
maybe lazy to go 3 classes...
maybe wanna save my parent's money
maybe...dunno maybe what also...
LOL
add on just now training time~very tulan lo
U GOT SO PEK BAK BO???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PEOPLE ANGRY U,U STILL ASK OTHER PPL WHAT HAPPEN TO ME???!!!!!!!!!!
DON'T U THINK URSELF WHAT HAPPEN??
zzzZZZZZ
beng zai late will get punishment!!!
U STILL COME LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u say urself la...how many time u come late d????!!!!!!!!
HOW MANY BURPIES U MAKE US DO D??????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!
wan say already say...wan scold toh cnt!
u can do is ur problem la...
why wan all of us do tgt vf u???!!!!!!
argggg~
was SUPER SIPEK GAO GIAK PEK CHEK JUST NOW!!!!!!
but then after that ok d la...
when i think~~~~~
a person that dun knw u well
we shouldnt listen to them!
we should always "jian chi" what we've choose!!!!!!!!
e.g...like i already choose FAU....
no matter how many ppl tell me it's hard...
i will still do it!!!
:)
I WILL DO MY BEST TO DO REVISION!!TO PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS!!!
TO IMPROVE MY ACC BASIC!!TO STUDY!!TO DO EXERCISES!!!!
TO ASK!!!!!!
I CAN DO IT ONE!!!!!!!! :D
##########
tmr going camp d...
LOL....hope i wont die there la...
=)
~B@dgirlkar3n~

phobia of physical test~

2012-01-04T23:38:00.004+08:00

today training ah...
at first very tl one...
after dat.....hmmm....
ok la...knw dat u wan me to improve la...
but improve also need water one...
dun let us rest nvm...but pls let us drink water
will dehydrate one leh~
LOL
and yes....dis week got camp
ok la...looking forward :D
but prob is...do i need to wash my own clothes??
:(
and another bad news.......next tue got physical test
T.T
dis was the thing i SCARE the MOST!!!
other maybe still ok...
but yoyo test..... .....
................................................
T.T T.T T.T T.T
my stamina still limited....
see today's training how i do also knw d
i hope rain again!!! :DDDDDDD
pls pls pls~popi popi popi xD
##########
BETWEEN...2012 IS REALLY A BRAND NEW YEAR FOR ME!!!!
New year...New hair cut...New life... New college!!!!!!!
New friends~
NEW CLOTHES!!!!!! =D =D =D
i'm transfering to other college...
and will start tmr... =)
weeeeeeeee~
though scare [coz i'm new there]
but i'm EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!also....haha
coz i think new college got more classmates
hope that i can knw new friends there :)
~B@dgirlkar3n~

i wan CAMP!!!

2012-01-02T18:03:00.004+08:00

today training......
............
I CANNOT KICK D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG~
long time din train kick d....
"fai" d.... T.T
############
CAMP!! CAMP!! CAMP!!!!
i wan CAMP!!!!!!!!!
hope got... :(
LOL
####
true pun la...shopping vf frens
100% FUN than shopping vf parents!!!!!
:D
coz frens can gv us opinion...
can...err.....dunno...hahahahaha
just feel that shopping vf frens is FUN!!!!
WOHOOOO~
the oni fun thing going out vf parents...
is that....what we buy and eat they'll pay for it
I KNOW...IT SOUNDS...BAD!!!
BUT SERIOUSLY la~~i prefer going out vf frens...
more freedom~haha...
wan buy wad also can...
as long as got money.....
LOL
~B@dgirlkar3n~

Happy New Year 2012!!!!!!!!!

2012-01-01T02:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weeeee~
NEW year~
NEW life~
NEW hairstyle~
:D
it's 2.52am
LOL
still not yet sleep!!!
coz i just back from qb...
countdown with cindy,suk ching,rouyi,kie mun,
may mun,doreen,bonnie,adrian&han tiong
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
a FUN day~
a FUN countdown~
everything just FUN!! xD
hope that my 2012 life will be like today
FULL OF LAUGHTER!!!! ^^
coz 2011 was a BAD BAD BAD year for me!!!!!!!
many problems....many stuff happen!!!
hope that every bad&unlucky things gonna change GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
no matter what...
karate...friendship...attitude...
studies....health...EVERYTHING!!!
REALLY!!!EVERYTHING!!!!!!!
i'm looking forward for my new lifeeeeeeee~~~ =)
people~hope that u all will have a happy new year also ^^
~B@dgirlkar3n~

gonna be different in 2012!!

2011-12-29T21:11:00.003+08:00

Arggggggggg~
MUSCLE PAIN!!!!
from neck to leg...
:(
bt nvm la...tmr last day of the week d!!!
then get to rest for 2 days~
sch gonna reopen soon...
5 more days nia...
haixxxxxxx
haixxxxxxxxxxxxxx
haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
cannot play d lo dis sem...
gotta study hard!! and pass the other 2 papers
:( i dun wan!!dun wan college~
dun wan class...later all alone sitting at the corner...
ma de~ I DON'T WANT TO BE LONELY LA!!!!
pp eh~pp ehhh~
muz wait pp ling finish her exam oni can go out vf her d
hmmm....CNY!! CNY!!! :D
dunno why cnt wait for it!!
i wan go balik pulau and play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~ :DDDDD
cnt wait!!cnt wait!!!
but dun wan cny pass so fast also!!!
what a conflict feeling i have now???!!LOL
between....2012 is gonna end soon!!!!!!
END SOON!!!!
SO FAST!!I'M GONNA STEP INTO 18++/19 YEARS OLD D~
:( SO OLD!!DUN WAN~ :(
going to countdown@queensbay~
before that....SHOPPING!!!!!!!wahahahahah
hvn buy my new year clothes yet...
hope that i can find those that suit me&i like it too
and most important...MUST be CHEAP!!!!!
pokai jorrr~
but before that...tmr...
wahahaha...gonna cut my hair and re-dye my hair!!
wanna be different in year 2012!!
hope my hairstyle suit me la hah....
still considering my hair colour...hmmm
like dat la...
~B@dgirlkar3n~

fat si liao la~

2011-12-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

dis 2 days training make my muscle very pain nia
haha...but kinda syok also la...
trying to improve my stamina...
need to go more physical training...
LOL
so that i wont die next time
i hope that there's nth that will make me stop my training again
if not ah....GG lo~
later train back d all also hilang again...
cannot ondiet d...
CANNOT ondiet d la!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
fat si nia~
cny also hard to buy clothes~
argggggggggg~
I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

怀念~

2011-12-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

最近心情还蛮不错的~
哈哈
只是偶尔觉得有点闷
和做人没什么意义咯。。。
人应该都会这样想吧
我试着放下啦。。。
明明就比较OK了
可是啊。。。怎么说呢？
还是会怪怪的。。。
可是比起那时你误解我时好啦
:)
可能一开始会咯。。。
过后就没事啦。。。
别担心~
你要参女生是你的事
不用因为我而去害怕
因为我没权利阻止~
听到时还蛮惊讶的！
你是男生勒！！！
哈哈哈哈
无论如何。。。
还蛮ENJOY在BALIK PULAU的日子
怀念~
:D
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很快就要开学咯。。。
以免麻烦，还是留在DISTED咯
等读完这两张纸才换COLLEGE啦
不然换来换去~麻烦到死~
又懒惰去问。。嘻嘻
希望时间能换咯。。。
不然星期五有课就很麻烦了
####
好想去买新年衣啊！！！
可是今年的PATTERN。。。好像。。。
不适合我！还是应该酱讲~
我不怎么喜欢勒。。。
有些喜欢的又。。。。。。。
:(
T.T
算了~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

da come!

2011-12-21T07:40:00.001+08:00

muscle pain!!
LOLLLLLLLLL
tahan ah tahannnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!
da ah daaaaaa!!!come come come!!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

“失去了回忆并不可怕~ 可怕的是无法面对~”

2011-12-19T15:12:00.002+08:00

刚刚看了朋友的BLOG
他应该有发生什么事吧？
这么悲~
他写了。。。一段我好像曾经看过的东西
可是却忘记了
确实。。。
“失去了回忆并不可怕~
可怕的是无法面对~”
#####
比赛过了~
朋友们都做得很好哦！！
嘻嘻~ :)
我呢？一开始就不抱着很大的希望。。。
所以赢输也没很开心或伤心
只是奇怪怎么突然手会废去~
练咯~练咯！
然后要跟支持我的人说声不好意思啦
第二场好像没什么尽力~
就这样。。。嘻嘻
~B@dgirlkar3n~

人与人之间。。。最好不要有误会啦！

2011-12-19T14:24:00.004+08:00

星期日和朋友去看"那些年，我們一起追的女孩"
因为都没时间。。。难得朋友还没看
就结伴去看啦~
哈哈。。。算是她让我啦~
:)
一开始还蛮闷得咯。。。
到了后面就比较OK了~
就最后面时。。。哭啦~
觉得很可惜啊！！！！
只因为一点点的小误会。。。
就错过了深爱彼此的对方噢~
如果。。。坦白讲出来不就好了嘛~
可惜哦！真可惜！
所以哦~人与人之间。。。最好不要有误会啦！
不然。。。错过了某些事时。。。就不要后悔啦！！！
~B@dgirlkar3n~

should i see a phychologist?

2011-12-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

emotional so unstable!!
HOW????????!!!!!!!!
should i go see a phychologist??
i feel that i gt mental problem :(
~B@dgirlkar3n~

妈的！

2011-12-17T19:48:00.003+08:00

妈的！
这世界是怎么啦？！
好累跟你啊！
没听到电话响，要接时你关了~
打回给你又不接!
还说我不要听你电话！！！
你想怎样？？？！！！！！！！
pek chek!!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

things i wanna do b4 i die

2011-12-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

ahhh
saw my fren's photo album last 2/3 weeks
about what i gonna do b4 die
i think...something like dat
hmmm...then i was thinking...
then come out dis...part of it nia
---------------------->
1)Go to Japan
2)Go to Taiwan
3)Go to disneyland
4))Clubbing
5)Watch METEOR SHOWER
....
WORK IN PROGRESS~

not to seek ur permission~

2011-12-16T22:48:00.004+08:00

if u dun let me go...i wont care also~
because I WANT TO GO!
i'm already 18!!
and i have my own life...
even though u gv me money every week
but i dun care~
if u dun let me go because of dangerous...
then u shouldnt let me take motor and car license at the first time!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGGG~
ma de~kek si wa!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

body pain!! :(

2011-12-16T20:43:00.002+08:00

body pain!!! :'( T.T
baru 9 days din go training nia...
gone~gone!
hmmm...slowly train back la...
since no class d....must push b4 sch start...
hmmm...ya! :(
gym~gym~wan to go gym d...
long time nvr visit de gym down there...
tmr if free toh go...
sun competition le...
goal 1 and goal 2?haha..
dun dare to write gold...
just hope that i can do my best la :)
weheeee~
dis month got free gsc movie ticket!!!
gonna claim it...wahahahahaha :D
~B@dgirlkar3n~

finish exam!pressure increase!comp coming!!!

2011-12-15T01:03:00.004+08:00

ARGGGG~
MA DE!!!!!!!!!
so so so so SO SO SO SO FULL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arggggg~
after hving supper vf suk ching,adrian&teik huat~
stomach always not feeling well!!
sometime dun feel hungry at all
when i feel i'm hungry,eat time,GASTRIC d~~~
sometime eat abit...also very FULL d!!!! :(
maybe my eating habit got some prob...
LOL!!!!!!
between...people~~I PASS ALL MY 3 PAPERS!!!!!!!
FAB,FMA&FFA!! even though i failed FAB once...
but i'm super GLAD that i pass for the retake exam!!! :D
though exam's over...I'M SUPER HAPPY~
but there's still something that make me angry and frustrated!
haixx....tot today..should i say yesterday(wed)??
should be a GREAT DAY!!
but in the beginning,it didnt happen like what i expected la!!!
luckily my gang of friends is there!!
I LOVE YOU ALL wei!!!!
THANKS GOD!! REALLY THANKS GOD THAT I HAVE A GANG OF FRIENDS~
THAT STAY BESIDE ME WHEN I NEEDED THEM!!the MOSTTTT!!!!!!!!
WHEN I REALLY GOT PROBLEM...THEY'LL TRY TO HELP ME ANALYSE AND INTERPRET!!
haha....
love u all!! especially cindy and suk ching!!!!
and also thanks yie hang,amelia,suk ching,cindy&rouyi~~
for the BDAY PRESENT!!!!!!love it alot...so CUTE!!!!!!
haha...and thanks doreen.. ^^
for buying me souvenir from singapore!!! :)
###
tot after exam...i'll have more FREEDOM!!
but i think i dun get my freedom...like what i want,rite??
instead of freedom...i got more PRESSURE!!
and..."xin shi"~ i really scare one day i got "jing shen bing"
dis sun FESCOM...i already do a prudence one "xin li zhun bei"
if lose...i wont care much la...coz i really din go training
got exam!!!!!!!!!!!! and i wont regret also la...
coz exam should come first mar...rite??
rm365 leh! I DUN HV SO MUCH MONEY TO RETAKE ANOTHER PAPER WHICH IS SO COSTLY!!
neither my parents~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

po pi meee :(

2011-12-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

T.T
STRESSFUL!!!
jz finish studying FMA~
hvn start exercise also
tonite nonid slp liao lo
HAIXXXX
GOD!!!pls help me
i wan to pass
50% enough d!!!
i'm nt dat greedy,right?? :(
PLEASEE~
ah gong...gong gong...jiong gong....please po pi me!!! :(
PLEASEEE~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

fail my FAB T.T

2011-12-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

what i can say is...
I ALREADY DID MY BEST!!!!!!!
I STUDY FAB for 1 month plus d
first time i study a subject for so long
i slpt around one hour yesterday only
aiksss~~
what to do??
RETAKE lo!!!!!!!!next tue~
T.T
RM365 gone!!!
luckily i din go to the camp...
if not next week straight DIE!!!!
3 papers in a week!!!!
48%!! 2 more marks!!!!!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~
WASTED!!!!!!!!
i dun wan to FAIL!!!!!!!!!!
:(
sien nia~~~
need to study again...
no need sleep d lo dis few days...
next week after exam sure mati...GG
pimples all also pop out d~~
kek sim nia~~
waste my parents money... :'(
no past year paper sm more~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I NEED HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

touched

2011-12-07T19:56:00.002+08:00

aiyayaya...2 more days....
2 more days
kinda tounched!!
coz even my lecturer fb message me
ask me to "jia you"
LOL
i think she really worry that i will fail
:(
THANK YOU MISS TONG!!!!!!!!!
=)
i will do my best la...
make sure not to fail...
after FAB...got FMA&FFA
hvn touch =.="
dieee~
too focus on FAB liao laaaaa~
was thinking where should go??
continue stay at Disted??
or transfer to PTPL?? SENTRAL?? or TARC??
which one better ah??hmmmm~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

be in a relationship with the one we love,is the most wonderful thing in this universe!!!

2011-12-07T01:45:00.002+08:00

dun understand
why two ppl together d still dont want to admit??
izit fun ah?!
dun u guys feel stressful and hard if continue like dat
so close to each other and trying to act nth
no relationship in fb??
do u guys feel ppl in this world are stupid???!!
if wan to be tgt,then DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PPL TALK!!!!
if they dun agree....dun support
their business!!!
BECOMING A COUPLE SHOULD BE A HAPPY THING THAT CAN LET THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW!!!!
If only when nobody is there,u all becming couple...
i feel it is like...stupid lo~~
coz a person,can be with the person that he/she loves
is the MOST WONDERFUL thing in this universe!!
LOL
this is what i feel la...
~B@dgirlkar3n~

happy 18th bday!!!

2011-12-06T01:20:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to shin yee~~~
happy birthday to me!!!!!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SHIN YEE!!!!
i guess....there will be no bday song for me this year~
so i'll sing it to myself!!! ^^
got alot of ppl wish me in fb d...
very happy!!!hehe
including u...
but...THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT!! :(
i want to celebrate with u...
nah~it wont happen!! :(
will be celebrating vf my family tmr...
at Tao,Juru Auto-city!!!!!!!!
wohoooooo~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

我会自己去找人教！！！！！

2011-11-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

身为我的SIR。。。
你觉得你酱讲话，对吗？？？！！！！！
什么叫做“你没东西能赢人”？？！！
我比赛输了。。。你什么都没说
算了~
可是你要酱伤我吗？!
你不觉得你自己很过分吗？？！！
我差也是你的学生！
你也曾经教过我~
那不如说你没用！！
是~你是很多学生好过我！
那又怎样？？！！
请你别拿别人和我比较！！
我不需要！！！
本来还在烦恼我得停练习一个礼拜，去考试~
还想抽时间去练习~
可是现在。。。我看不用了！！！
不需要！！
反正我去。。。你也觉得我没尽力！！
不是吗？？
这样我不如待在家。。。好好读书~应付考试！！
不然FAIL了还要浪费父母的钱~
停一个礼拜就停吧~
反正我去不去。。。。你也不会管
就算管，也是为了跟MSN交代~
反正你觉得我这么没用。。。
不用你教我！！
我会自己去找人教！！！！！
~B@dgirlkar3n~

kan?? LOL

2011-11-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

few days din meet d
kinda miss u
LOL
i think...i still got feeling for u la
coz when i see u won...
i really very HAPPY!!!
haha....
bt don worry...u'll nvr knw
coz...it isnt like last time d
i think i grow much mature after dat
=)
juz be fren la...
since u wont like me
kan?? ^^
though dis is nt wad i want...
~B@dgirlkar3n~

gg~

2011-11-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

did not do my best
i cnt even attack
cnt counter
my standard....
haha...i know where i am now
i'll never be in the national team...
not up to that standard~
1 category 3 ppl...and i got bronze
does it counted win??
PLS LA!! LOSE K???!!!!
dun understand why ppl oni wanna see the medal??
got medal counted win meh?
lose like siao!!!
again~
with that girl...when i first fight MAKAF...year 2009
shamini...hayashiha...national squad
so what can i say?
lucky to meet her in the first round???
or should i say unlucky??
lose d of coz cry la...dun ask!
bt a while nia...
coz heart already die liao~
regret!!dissapointed!!
but i dun understand??
why cnt us penang team beat them??
they gt malaysia coach...
and we got an international iran coach!!!!!!!
I JUST DUN GET IT!!!!
WHY CNT I IMPROVE???!!!!!
I WENT TO TRAINING!!!!I DID!!!
I TRY TO DO MY BEST ALSO!!!!
BUT WHY??
EVERYTIME LOSE TILL SO UGLY??!!
1 MATCH 2 MINUTES....NOT EVEN 1 MINUTES ALREADY 8-0
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~
gg~
cnt even win a 1 star competition...
how can i win a 4 star SUKMA???
need to start "hell training" after my exam!!
got to put on alot of weights on hands and legs...
need to train very hard!!!
no matter how my size is la!!!!!
no matter how pain am i la!!!!!!!!!!
but first....is to WIN U!!!!
~B@dgirlkar3n~

心酸~

2011-11-23T22:27:00.002+08:00

walao~
妈的！
星期五就比赛了~
肯定JIAK SAI咯~
练酱久还是~唉~
可是还OK啦~
最近都没有在练习时没心情~
也没有哭~
还是不要讲~
等下又在哭就惨！
想进步啊~
可是怎么啦~
为什么酱的？
都不敢进啊！！
唉~
而且。。。不懂勒~
我想比你好！！
我一定要赢你！！！！
一定要！！！
算是报复吗？
可以说我很小气~
可是。。。还是一样啦。。。
我一定会赢你的！！
只要我继续练习！
我相信我能~
可是还得自己在家多加练习哦
###
心酸~
:(
怎么酱啊？
算了~不想讲~
顺其自然吧。。。
###我农历生日过了。。。。我也不懂
唉~
英历的呢？
我没太多希望
算了~
顺其自然~
不想和你过~
虽然现在跟你OK了。。。。能讲话，说笑
可是啊~发生过的事。。。就是发生过~
忘不了！！！
人都一样~
而你呢。。。我是不会原谅你的！！！
~B@dgirlkar3n~

心情好低落~

2011-11-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

我对你。。。还有感觉吗？？
我已经不知道了
很想跟你讲话
可是。。。却开不了口
这就是我的命运吧？
整天怨这个怨那个
说这个说那个
得了教训~
好累
好累
怎么啦李欣仪？？？
你怎么突然这样了？
以前。。。在所有的东西还没出现之前
在你没有所有东西之前
还不都是好好的？？
现在。。。还会是以样啊~
朋友。。。学业。。。感情。。。
不都是一样罢了？
有分别么？
不懂~
好烦哦~
心情好低落~
唉~
~B@dgirlkar3n~

所谓的朋友！！！

2011-11-19T00:46:00.003+08:00

怎么啦？
为什么心情突然那么的不好？
因为狗？不是！
因为那部戏? 可能吧~
就觉得。。。
很累~
很闷~
很压力~
又没朋友~
而且。。。已经不相信朋友了啊
那朋友对我，还重要吗？
其实。。。自从那间事起。。。
我就已经知道。。。
做人要谨言谨慎~
而且。。。我不会忘掉那件事！
而我。。。不会相信你！不会原谅你！！！
就算以后我没了全部的朋友。。。我也不会找你
我想开始新的生活啊~
不想再过以前的日子
可是又摆脱不了你们
讲东西也不敢太讲了
因为知道。。。讲了出来，后果就会不堪设想！！！
就算是你最要好的朋友。。。
也会出卖你！！！
那就是。。。所谓的朋友！！！
~B@dgirlkar3n~

why wanna compare us??

2011-11-04T20:33:00.004+08:00

i dun understand...
why every time u wanna compare other people with us???
do u feel good if u compare us like dat?
we will compare ourselves one mar...
i knw is ur pattern...
but still...maybe u feel compare us will let us improve
but dun u think it hurts us sometimes??
not to say angry...actually kinda normal d...
everytime also like dat...
not compare with her...toh compare with her...
iz juz that i dun understand...
compare us vf other ppl will let u feel better meh??
hmm
nevermind d...should get use to it
maybe u always feel i'm lazy
i cnt win the others
if u really feel so,u wont see my improvement gua~
haixxxxx~
3 years d...let me see different kind of things
maybe i'm nt potential fighter like the others
the only advantage is tall~long hand and leg~
but there's alot of disadvantages that i have too
fat~clumsy~slow~reaction slow~negative thinking~
and many more
some part i couldnt change la...
but the other disadvantages that i have,
i'll try to make me to bcm advantages~
:)
but i say first~it takes time la..
hope that can change b4 sukma...hmmm
~B@dgirlkar3n~

choose to stand alone~

2011-10-16T07:15:00.002+08:00

never believe that my last blog was wrote on august
lol....2months ago
and seriously..this 2 months happen alot of stuff
especially dis few days......
my life is in a mess...i guess
if u guys got read my blog...
surely knw that i'm an easily emo person
and like to blah out everything but not to the person
sometime i think i hurt alot of people
and they dislike me...or even hate me too
actually kinda get use to it d...
but still...will hurt also la
coz got people hate us
especially they're ur best frens
frens and frens should straight forward and blah everything out
seriously...i agree with it!!!
even though ur frens tell u ur bad things,it hurt alot!!!
but open up everything is a good choice~
but sometimes....when u knw the person is an emo person too...
or sensitive person...or u already knw her attitude...
is not good..or so call
i choose to tell my most trustful friends
~~~but sometimes,when u thought that u trust a person
but that person actually try to be good by saying out to the "subject"
even not by purposely...
then i think u'll NEVER EVER trust the person again!!!!
coz got one person...because of this,dont trust me
angry me~
but actually he misunderstand me~
not like dis time i told my trustful fren everything
and now...same thing happen again,the one i trust...
WILL NEVER BE U AGAIN!!
sometime i choose to be the cheese and stand alone...
maybe will feel lonely~
but at least people wont betray u...
and no quarrels!!no anger!!!no sensitive!!no emo!!
:)
and i think i make the wrong choice~
now trying to fix the thing now~
haixxx...headache lorrr
~B@dgirlkar3n~

God gives me the strength and power!

2011-08-13T00:56:00.001+08:00

i'm shocked!!!

coz u came~

LOL

still the same

din talk to you today

and so do you

i think u still angry at me

i think u still....

aiks~nvm~

God gives me the strength and power to overcome all these

today training really...hmm

i did very badly

stamina drop

physical drop

everything drop!

nearly....nearly cry~

then i pray! wohoo~after pray feel more better~

i can feel dat u're here for me when i need You.....

smtimes i hate myself

bt i will change...i know i can change...i know You will help me

because...

You love me!

with You,NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE!! ^^

Amen!

###

and yes...yesterday our cell group S3 hving our first outing...

wohoo~

it's BADMINTON!!

it's kinda fun la... :)

7 of us...

vicky,amelia,yie hang,wai liang,yen yee,qi hao and me

hope next time can bring more frens and hv more court~

p/s:shin yee ah~u muz start study d!!!

do ur hmwork!!do ur revision!! dun watch pokemon d larr

(but its NICE!!!LOL)

i'm looking forward for tmr's service...

hope can have a breakthrough in my life and learn smthing new

wehheee~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Happy Birthday CHCPG

2011-08-07T21:25:00.006+08:00

wooohHHOOOOOO!!!!

Happy Birthday CHCPG!!!!

CHC's bday should be 6th August...i din upload blog ystdy la

hehe

*i couldnt slp the day b4 the anniversary~fri...coz was too excited!!!

and abit nervous*

it's AWESOME man!!

dis two days services...for those who din come...

too bad~ U MISSED IT!!!!

it's FUN!!
it's AWESOME!!

it's EXCITING!!!!!!

wohoooo~

what i can say is...

today's service is the MOST EXCITING ONE!!!

and thx God....for making me feel the peace and joy

thx LORD!!!

and i felt Your present ystdy~

thank you God!!!

thank you for telling me...asking me to give up on him

i'll try and do my best in giving up him!

no matter how hard it is...but i know with You,Lord

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!

AMEN!! :)

the STORY TIME SERMON by Ps.Saras is NICE!!!!

AWESOME!!!!!!

and one of the performance was the japanese singing the japanese worship song

its SO TOUCH!!!! <3

and our karate performance...got abit mistakes for both days..

but at least today better d... ^^

so i thank you God...for everything that u've done in my life

i really appreciate it!!

dun stop pls!!

continue to do ur mighty job...and let more miracles happen in my life

and Lord,thank you for letting him come back to you

i'm SURPRISE that he'll come today!! SERIOUSLY!!!

so i really wanna gv u around of applause *clap*

THANK YOU!!!!!

this is the first step Lord,he's trying his first step...

bt dun let him stop! let him walk sm more LORD~

guide him back to Your kingdom Lord....

i pray for him *pray* AMEN!!

and thank you God!cause i got 5 friends turn up...

Kah Lam,Suk Ching,Han Tiong,Wai Liang and his bro,Weng Seong

Lord,pls bless them Lord,bless them in everything they do Lord...

thank you everyone that is helping on these 2 days...thank you!!!

especially the usher..."xin ku le" ^^

~B@dgirlkaren~

原来你是生气我

2011-07-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

原来你是生气我

我还以为你是知道我喜欢你，所以才逃避我呢

也不懂应该开心还是伤心好

其实我知道时并不是很惊讶~

只是想不到你是酱小气的

到现在还记得

算了~

我真的有错！

你要生气我，我没权叫你不要生气我。。。

只能诚心诚意的向你说声

对不起！！！！

真的很不好意思~

可是我要你知道

我真的是不知道她怎么会突然去问你的~

是她问你过后她才告诉我。。

我才告诉她的！

这是真的！

我连她好朋友，我妹都没讲！！！！

我只是跟她讲我喜欢你的事

我因你难过的事

我因你开心的事

其它我什么都没讲！！

我没讲！！

为什么你就是不信我？？？

难道在你眼里我就是那么不能守秘密的人吗？

如果真的是那样，当时你又何必告诉我啊？？？

她好朋友是猜做么你不喜欢我

猜两个原因

1）你喜欢别的女生

2）你不喜欢我

她才会那晚去跟她讲

而她也是为了帮我，才问你的

问到这个答案，谁也不想

可是不都过去了吗？

我们还当你是朋友

你不必要为了这件事而看不开，而不要参我们吧？

你也没必要生气我酱久吧？

我想起。。。还真的是很难受！

我也不想跟她好朋友讲的啊。。。

可是你知道~

我没什么朋友，不像你！

她要去乱猜，乱想

我也没办法啊

她要问你，我更是没办法！！！

如果她问过我或是我知道她要问你的话，我是肯定会阻止她的！！！！

唉~

算了~

现在。。。我只希望你没事！

希望神会保佑你！

希望你的病快点好起来~

其它的。。。都不重要了~

只要你能好起来。。。

你要继续生气我就继续吧~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

U GUYS PISSED ME OFF!!

2011-07-18T15:28:00.002+08:00

DAMN!!!

U GUYS PISSED ME OFF!!

my mood was ok today...bt bcz of u two~

my mood SUCKS!!!zzZZZ

do u expect me to go to BJ and take the key from u???

I ALREADY ASK U TO PASS IT TO HIM!!!
MEANS U JUST DO IT LA!!!

WHY HE GV U THEN U TOOK IT BACK!!!????!!!!!

DUN U USE UR BRAIN AND THINK???

nw how i wan to lock the door if u cnt cm to my hse and gv me the key???

AND U!!!

ASK U TO TAKE TOH TAKE LA!!!!

WHY GV HER BACK???!!!!

F**KKKKK!!!!!

ma deeeeee~my mood~~~

POMMMMPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

explode dddddd~

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

~B@dgirlkar3n~

GOD~我知道您疼我！

2011-07-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

原来已经四个月多了

我很想告诉你

可是啊~

有时又觉得没用

因为。。。你已经不相信我了~

我想告白~

有时也觉得没用

可是啊。。。

唉~算了~

我的心情没人会了解

除了GOD

GOD~我知道您疼我！

谢谢你!!!

总在我身边听我诉苦

我不会害怕~

因为您在我身边！

我懂你要给我美丽的生活

我会等的 ^^

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Fasting&Prayer season start!!!!

2011-07-13T13:02:00.002+08:00

today start Fasting&Prayer season d

i din do full fast la of coz...dis was my first time fasting~

LOL

only did 1 meal fast-lunch

dis morning eat few pieces of bread...

just nw gt abit hungry~

zzZZZ

bt i pray...then nw cnt feel the hunger d... ^^

thank you God!!!

and i pray for alot of things...

i will continue to pray and ask for God's help

but i wont ask for too much...

i knw everything happen for a reason

so i just pray for the general one~

####

to u...i can say nth~

i've been praying praying and praying for u

i hope u'd change la...

coz it been a long time din see u...9 days d...

feel like asking u to go pasar malam tgt tonite...

but....hmmm....nvm la...fgt bout it~

just nw looked back all those pictures

*tears*

but wad i can do is...

i think we're nt mean to be tgt~

but confession will still be done...i guess

to make sure that i wont regret next time~

i will accept anything...

including the answer that u will gv me

and the consequences...i'll accept :)

~B@dgirlkar3n~

我是一块没用的烂石头！！！

2011-07-08T20:38:00.002+08:00

好累！

好累！！！

不懂从几时开始心就酱累了~

真的非常累~

累到。。。打算放弃了

如果这不是您安排给我的~

我何必去勉强自己。。。

弄到自己酱累~

还整天酱不开心。。。

超不爽我自己！！！

我觉得就连我身边的人都不爽我，累跟我了！！

难道没流汗就是没认真吗？？！！

汗自己不要流，我有办法吗？？！！

我也知道我差啊！！！

我试了~做了~还是不能啊~

我能怎样？？？！！！！

怎样弄我也是不能进步啊！！！

又不是我不要！！！

我比任何人都想要进步！！！！！！

可是我真的没办法啊~

难道勉强我自己就能了吗？

答案是：不能！！！！

我不能！

我是一块没用的烂石头！！！！！！！！！！！！

怎样雕，怎样磨，也不能成为你们要的水晶！！！

你们明白吗？？？！！！！！

~B@dgirlkar3n~

烦!

2011-07-07T02:03:00.002+08:00

刚才练习，我又再哭咯！！

今年第三次了吧？

还真是破纪录的一年！

在想，我是不是不适合KUMITE。。。

我不能！我不会！

可是CINDY说，如果我不能，我还能走到今天吗？

听到时~有在想~可是啊。。。

还是觉得我很没用！！！

就连JUNIOR也比我还好~

我无言~

可能就是没天分！

可能。。。我的天分就是不在KUMITE！！

有点想放弃的感觉~

可是，又答应过阿SIR。。。

我也不想让他失望~

可是，再酱下去，结果不都还是一样？

我不会进步的！！就算我几想要也不能~

所以，到头来，去比赛输了，还不都是令阿SIR失望~

可是，我真的不想输你！！！

我已经是什么都输你了！！！

我不爽！！！

我不明白！！！！

就算这是GOD安排的。。。

也不明白做么GOD会给你所有东西~

而我呢？就只有高度赢你~

我不爽全部男生都围着你转！！！

有时还真的觉得她跟我讲的是对的。。。

可能你真的知道，可是假装不知道

酱很可爱吗？？！

我不屑！！！

他们男生觉得~

那又怎样？？？！！

我就是不屑！！！

妈的~

我不明白，做么我跟你的命相差酱多！！！

你什么都有。。。而我呢？

什么都没有！！

就连我喜欢的男生也喜欢你！

BULL SHIT！！！！！

啊~啊~啊~

我真的受不了了！！！

很累啊~

GOD~

求求你~

帮帮我，好吗？

我喜欢KUMITE的程度绝不比她少！！！！

至少。。。给我一样，人人都觉得我赢她的地方吧~

除了高度和身材以外~

因为我比她肥！！！

还有你。。。我恨你！！！

可是。。。同时的，我也喜欢你！

可是。。。似乎。。。一切。。。都不重要了！！！

你已经有了你的新生活~

而你选着不再参我们这班朋友~

了解~

算了~反正~已经对友情，没什么信心了~

对自己，也没信心了！！

可能。。。一切真的是注定的~

只有听天由命吧~

烦!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

很久没酱开心了

2011-06-27T21:45:00.002+08:00

我的妈！

我好开心！！哈哈哈哈~

很久没酱开心了~哈哈

太莫名其妙了吧我？

没什么特别事发生啊~

可是。。。

我就是很开心！嘻嘻~

我希望。。。

未来的日子，我跟你，都会像以前一样

嘻嘻嘻嘻

~B@dgirlkar3n~

why dun u trust me???

2011-06-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

actually after yesterday's cell group

i feel much more better

even i think of you...but i wont be emo like last time d

hehe

i guess it's a good thing

and now...i'm thinking...should i confess to u nw

i really wan!!!

but i dun wan to ruin our frenship

i also dun wan let myself regret...

damn~i dunno wad to do...

1 more thing...i really wanna knw...

why u dun wan to talk to me????

WHY??!!! aiks~~~

until nw i still dunno why

u dun trust me izit?

i really didnt tell her~i tell her after she knws...

:( but why dun u trust me??

haixxxx.....nvm d la~

since i'm jz a nobody to u~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

problemsss

2011-06-21T22:47:00.001+08:00

do you knw what's the prob now?i think u didnt knw there's a problem and what the problem is?but i knw there's sm problem between us...or maybe you knw there's problem but you choose to keep quiet not to solve the problem~

maybe i'm the one who think u have a problem...or maybe you don't have a problem...bt i think i am the one who got problem now...the problem is so mini but why the problem cnt be solve...so what we must do now is to make the problems bcm no problem....no problem rite??

~B@dgirlkar3n~

pls bless me

2011-06-21T00:31:00.003+08:00

u knw wad??

I START TO HATE U D!!!!

dun ask me why

no why!

JUST HATE!

i knw it's nt ur fault~

COZ I'M JEALOUS!!!

I CNT CONTROL MYSELF!!!

if u really wanna knw whether he gt come anot...

WHY NOT U ASK HIM URSELF??

SINCE U'RE SO CLOSE TO HIM NOW!!!!!!!!!!

WHY U WAN TO ASK ME WHEN U KNW HE DIN TALK TO ME NW?????!!!!!

U PURPOSELY WAN,IZIT???!!!!!

SORRY lar~

but i really cnt stop myself from HATING you!!!

i think what i can do now is PRAY!!!!!!

PRAY HARD!!!!

to let go "you"!!!!

and anger towards you!!!

God...pls bless me!!!!tq.

~B@dgirlkar3n~

我觉得。。。是时候。。。放句号了！！！！

2011-06-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

你知道我每天开面子书是为了什么吗？

我是在等你。。。等你跟我讲话~

可是每天都很失望！！！

有时觉得就算等不到，

也能看看你在面子书POST了什么

可以多认识你，可以多知道你的生活发生了什么事也好

因为我知道，你是不会跟我讲的！

唉~

其实你知道我喜欢你的吗？？

你真的不知道吗？？

还是你知道了假装不知道？？！！！

如果你不喜欢我。。。

请你跟我讲，好吗？

不用怕伤到我~

让我死了这条心！！！

让我忘记你，好吗？

我很累。。。

真的很累。。。你知道吗？

神叫我不要放弃~

可是。。。

我好像在等着一个永远不可能喜欢我的人~

我觉得自己很笨！！！很蠢！！！！！

够了吧。。。

朋友们都累跟我了。。。

我也觉得。。。我不该跟任何人讲了。。。

就自己承受不就好了吗？

反正这辈子你也不可能在我需要你的时后在我身边

支持我，安慰我，借我你的肩膀的啦。。。

而且。。。我干嘛要烦到别人？？？

难道我就不能独立点吗？？！！！

自己面对自己的事不就好了？？

我应该做得到~

其实。。。就算没希望。。。

我也真的很想。。。很想。。。大声的告诉你

XXXXXX，我很喜欢你！！！！！！

可是。。。我做不到

也不想打扰你~

反正你都不喜欢我。。。

我们还是当朋友好了~

就算。。。这不是我要的 :'(

我能做什么呢？

哈哈哈哈！

李欣仪。。。“够了！

不要在继续错下去！！！！

不要再自作多情了！

他是不会喜欢你的！！！！

你听懂吗？?！

忘掉他吧。。。忘掉他！！！！！！！！！！！

你不是他杯茶，听到吗？？！

没有镜子也用水照照你自己啦

看~你那么丑！！！！！

那么肥！！！！！

脾气那么暴躁！！！！

哪有人会喜欢你的？？！！！”

算了吧~

我觉得。。。是时候。。。放句号了！！！！

~B@dgirlkar3n~

难道“你”就看不出我是真的很喜欢他吗？

2011-06-12T01:12:00.002+08:00

这真的是“你”要给我的答案吗？

如果是真的，“你”还要让我等多久？

三个月了。。。不够久吗？

我很开心因为他肯跟我们讲话

肯开玩笑了

可是，他想讲话的对象，不是我啊！

我本来真的很开心~可是我又吃醋~

我真的不懂要怎样好

刚才都差点哭了出来

我不会是他那被茶吧？

那“你”怎么叫我不要放弃呢？

还是我自己听错了答案~

还是这是一个考验？

要考研我，看我有几爱他？

未免太过了吧~一次又一次

我受够了！

我懂“你”是为我们好，是“你”创造我们

可是。。。

难道。。。

就算是酱。。。也不要酱嘛！

很痛的~真的！

可是又哭不出啊~

“你”想我怎样嘛？说啊!

我。。。的心。。。有点累了~

难道“你”就看不出我是真的很喜欢他吗？

还是“你”觉得不够？！

那“你”要我怎样证明啊？

“你”讲啊！“你”讲嘛！！！

算了~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

started my new life...today onwards!

2011-06-10T18:17:00.003+08:00

and finally...

I accepted!!!! :)

I know it will be GOOD for me

and I will be starting my NEW life...

starting from today~

A WHOLE NEW LIFE!!! ^^

though i lie my parents...

but I know that it is GOOD for me

and of coz...for them also!

I wont regret of making this choice... ^^

weee~

and i really wanna thanks God...

THANK YOU for blessing me

to pass my T3&T4 exam smoothly!!!

THANK YOU for blessing him Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU for taking away all the anger and jealousy

from kie mun!!!!!!

THANK YOU LORD!!!!

I hope that You will continue blessing us... ^^

and i hope that You'll makes miracles happen in my life...

THANK YOU LORD!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

AUDACIOUS!!

2011-05-30T01:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY AUDACIOUS!!!!

haha...jz saying nonsense....dun care bout me...hehe

last 3 days....was a BUSY DAY!!

Fri-Audacious,8pm

go to yen yee's hse at 4 smthing...

make up and change d....go to CHC

then fetch amelia go back her hse and gt her name tag...

then go put petrol...

headed to adrian's hse to gt his name tag...

then back to CHC

driver lur me...bt nvm la...haha...

reach d....go toilet d....go line up....LONG!!! *HOT*

Audacious start at 8pm....

gt 1 of the answer of my question dat i wan to knw

THX GOD!!!

I WONT GIVE UP!!! ^^

finish 10smthing...we sat there and talk~

fetch yen yee back to her grandma's hse

reach hm 11 smthing 12am...

Sat-Chung Hwa Secondary School Canteen Day

woke up 7 smthing....thx to adrian...LOL

(i texted him...ask him bout the canteen day...

he replied the next day at 7 smthing)

=.=" 8.45am fetch amelia to chung hwa

saw adrian at the entranc vf his frens...

then amelia and i walk 1 round...then find yh

then walk vf yh,buy food and drinks...EAT!!!!FULLLL!!!!!!!!!

12 smthing...i go back grandma hse...they sit bus back...

Audacious,5pm

3smthing go to yen yee grandma's hse

then fetch her to CHC

go queue....damn LONG!!

finish 7 smthing...talk talk talk until 8 smthing 9pm

go eat dinner tgt with willy and all of them

then fetch yen yee back....

reach hm 11 smthing...

Sun-Audacious,10.30am

woke up 8.45am,call yh..

9.30 go fetch him...then headed to CHC

go change d...go down....walk in d...hehe...nonid to line up

we sit 2nd row...wee~oni 3 of us...yh,yen yee and me

adrian couldnt get up....LOL...coz he watched football...

PIG LA U ADRIAN!!!

then after service....around 1pm...

walk to Gurney...had our lunch at Gurney food court

then go find a chair and sit....

amelia and yh seems tired...aiks....should tell me mar...

then we can go hm and slp mar

they make me tired nia...

then go buy ice cream vf yen yee....

KOCHABI DURIAN!!!nice~ :)

then 5 smthing walk back to CHC....

after dat fetch yh back to his hse...

coz his grandpa gt bday celebration~

then i back to CHC....change d...line up....we're the 1st one!!

weeee~finally!!!gt fan...WIND~COOL~ xD

from 6.50 like dat....wait till 7.30 like dat...

WITH MY HEELS!!!!! T.T

nearly die~haha...

Audacious,8pm,go in d...

tot adrian nt going...manatau amelia sms me..

told me dat he's cming...

b4 dat,when we were lining up...

amelia,yen yee and i keep on calling him...

LOL....especially yen yee....

she said wanna miss call him till 100 missed call

=.=" lor

then he sit at the back of us...yy sit vf me

tired...cnt really concentrate...but still FUN!!!!!!!!!

learn lots of thing... :)

AUDACIOUS!!!AUDACIOUS!!!AUDACIOUS!!!!!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

I AM WHO I AM ^^

2011-05-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

i tot nothing will happen

nah~i dun wanna mention it here

dun wanna think

dun wanna ask

dun wanna kpc d...

coz it's NON OF MY BUSINESS!!!!!

if not...i'll be the one who emo!

sad!

angry!

and i will hate myself also!!!

hmm...

really thanks God

thank you...for taking all my problems away

and let me have a little of my study mood back :)

Amen

#####

you didnt know

i was damn happy when people say dat!!!

I din wan to treat u as my brother!!!

I dont want you to treat me as a sister also

I DONT WANT!!!

BUT WHAT CAN I DO??

NOTHING~~

at least now we're still frens

after i said...we're be like them

wont talk...

i dun wan!

I DONT WANT TO BURDEN YOU ANYWAY!!!

I think I should keep it in my heart

*fren told me dat,there'a only 1 chance...

if I've miss it...I wont have the chance anymore*

I KNOW!!seriously~

but i can do nothing....

I know u dun like me....not even 0.0001%

so WHY I NEED TO TELL U??

at least nw we gt to talk...and chat...and meet

if i tell u d...i dont think we can did dat anymore...

dis is why i plan not to say...

maybe...i should wait!

but hello~

i knw ok??

I'M FAT!I'M UGLY!I'VE ALOT OF BAD ATTITUDES!!I'M FIERCE!!I'M RUDE!!!

if u're a guy...will u like people like me??

NO!!right??even i hate myself...

but i know GOD CREATE ME FOR A PURPOSE!! :)

nobody will think dat....at least u wont...i guess!!!

u like cute girl...like her!u like those who're nice....good attitudes...dan chun one

every guy like dat type of girl...

I cant be like them....

coz I AM WHO I AM!!!

if only i change to dat type,oni u will like me...

then i guess i dont suit u!!

not dat i dun wanna change...

i mean i can change to more polite...try to change my attitudes...

but dan chun?i couldnt make it one!!!

coz...dis is the natural personality dat God want us to be

and I'm nt create with dis personality

so...

I hope that...

u'll be the guy that will appreciate me

i hope so.......

sounds impossible!!

look impossible!!!

yorrr~~

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

damn~

why i dun dare to tell u????!!!!

T.T

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Thanks Lord~ ^^

2011-05-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

last few days...

unpredictable thing happen!

well....

finally...it's over...i guess ^^

kinda relief~

and hope that no more such case happen....

so i guess imma nt telling you...LOL

between...

Lord...

Thank You!!!

coz u blessed me....to meet all my frens....

they were my GOOD frens!!!!!

kind...friendly...sweet...

and most of all...they're true to me~

they're seriously...my TRUE FRIENDS!!!

no faking infront of me...

i hope dat Lord...

u will blessed everyone of them...

(Amelia,Yen Yee,Yie Hang,Adrian,Kie Mun)

with good health...happiness...

and hope that we can be friends until the end of our life ^^

and I pray that my family&frens can be healthy and happy!

Amen

p/s:though i'm nt a christian...bt I believe in Jesus...

~B@dgirlkar3n~

pls change my plan that u've planned~

2011-05-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

Thx God~

for letting all my friends walk into my life :)

...

God let us bcm frens bcoz He gt a plan for everyone of us

I dunno what's Your plan...

but can u change a little bit of Your plan God??

please...

I...seriously cannot take it anymore

already a few times....

PLEASE LORD!!!!

I pray to You...

I hope that You will change my life's plan

not much....just relationship...to a better one...

at least better than now

Amen

~B@dgirlkar3n~

fun weekend~

2011-05-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

went to service at CHC ystdy evening

sit motor to yie hang's hse...

then sit bus go to komtar and then headed to CHC

5pm start...amelia,yen yee,kie mun,yie hang and me were there

talk bout ability

it kinda true.... "ABILITY ATTRACTS ABILITY"

haha...love it!!! xD

during the service....

adrian text amelia,ask us whether wanna go jogging tmr

i mah say...ok lor

after finish the service....

amelia,kie mun&yen yee went to party

while yie hang and me sit bus go to komtar&then back to his hse

after dat go hm...reach hm around 8 smthing...

wait Amelia...coz we're going to lim nai nai...

around 10.05pm,Adrian asked me going d not?

so i plan to fetch yie hang go first....

when amelia reach her hse i baru go fetch her

manatau her sis drop her there

so amelia and I call nestum cow's milk

mine was less sugar...bt stilll very SWEET!!!!!

adrian drink cow's milk with egg and yie hang drink plain cow's milk

we discuss bout the jogging thingi...but still...NO ANSWER!!

so we drink and talk until 11 smthing...

since yie hang like bo mood aneh...make amelia bo mood

make me headache...so i plan to go ronda ronda...

we went up to yen yee's grandma hse there

go kap siao kap siao...and see stars

i count stars....but it was like uncountable...

LOL

then we discuss bout the jogging thingi again...

adrian planned nt to go jogging d...we walked up yen yee's grandma hse...

hike up the hill....the amelia says wanna see sunrise

so we gt to wake up 5 smthing...

and dat time already 12 smthing...

they like... "har??so early ah? dun wan can bo?"

i was like...dunno u all lar...

we discuss discuss and discuss...still~NO ANSWER!!!

dat time adrian was tired d....everyone was TIRED!!including me

bt they still dun wanna confirm the answer....

DAMN PEK CHEK!!!

so i say....if like dat go back d la...(my face kinda black)

i think they tot i angry is bcz they dun wanna go

actually go or not...i'm ok one la...

i jz wanna knw the answer...

if nt all of us cnt go back...zzzZZZZZ

then adrian says go back ka tell us...

after i fetch amelia back to her hse....i waited and waited...

finally...he text us...told us dat tmr going

ask me to morn call him....so does amelia...

i say ok...

then i go watch mv....till 2am...

2 smthing slp...set alarm at 5.25am

bt i think i woke up b4 5am

cnt slp d...was waiting for the alarm to ring...bt still din rang!!zzZZZ

then i go brush teeth and get ready everything...

5.30 morn call melia....then morn call yie hang

then 5.35am morn call adrian

after dat go bath and drink hot chocolate

then go to fetch amelia...headed to adrian's hse...and then yie hang's hse

after dat headed to yen yee grandma's hse there...

yie hang was fetching adrian...LOL

i was damn scared~follow at the back of them~

after dat change to adrian fetch yie hang go up the hill

i tot they wanna park motor below yen yee grandma's hse...

manatau he straight go up

dat time kinda dark!

and i din knw dat the road was SO DAMN SIPEK STEEP!!!

adrian they all go up kinda far d....

i use 2nd gear...bt motor nt enough energy to get up...

so faster pt my leg down....press disc break...

wanna change to 1st gear...bt road too steep d...

motor keep going down...i cnt tahan d..

so "pom"

I BENG AGAIN!!!

after i get up...faster go see amelia...

my God~luckily she was safe!no bleeding~

THX GOD!!!

then adrian and yie hang "u turn" cm back see us..

and saw us beng...quickly get my motor up...

nth serious happen...luckily...

after dat adrian ride down to park his motor...

my leg was shaking....yh said dat he wanna help me ride down

bt i was too scare to let him ride...later he also beng hw ah??

so i slowly ride down...

on the way time saw adrian run up...

then i park my motor...

then hw run cm down again...then he walked up tgt with me

hand gt wound...bt was small one...

so ok lar.. :) then leg abit pain...dun dare to tell them...LOL

hmmm....SORRY GUYS!!

I OWE U GUYS A SORRY!!!

coz i'm late...to adrian's hse....sm more bcz my sucks riding skill...beng!!

then make all of us couldnt see the sunrise...

SORRY!!! :((

after dat we walked up...

when we're reaching top of the hill d...manatau~~

dog came out...zzz

we're kinda afraid of the dog...so we walk down again

and went to the small waterfall and play...

IT WAS SUPER FUN!!! :)

water was cold~

bt unfortunately...yie hang's ph drop into the water....zzzZZZ

gg d~

then after dat...we go to Asia Cafe to have our breakfast...

eat dim sum and mee sua kor

MY GOD!!!!

FULL TILL I WANNA VOMIT!!! =D

after dat fetch amelia back to her hse

then i go back grandma hse

after bath and everything...went back to new hse and take my sport shoes...

then go to fetch yie hang...

on the way saw adrian...so we go tgt

then go petrol station "pak you"

then headed to CHC

tot we were late...so i lap~manatau~...we're nt late...hehe

then start service by singing few songs...

and my favourite song is one of those also

DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN LIFE

DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

O HOW I LOVE YOU LORD

when i was singing the 1st part....

damn~u guys should knw wad happen lar

smthing appear in my mind...LOL

today was mother's day service...so alot of mothers were there

and pastor say smthing..

let me feel like calling my mum dat time and tell her dat I LOVE HER

coz dis words have been a couple of years,din cm out fr my mouth d~

bt at last i din do so... :(

plan to tell her on her bday :) :) ^^

after service...went to sunrise mcd to study...

then 4 smthing 5 pm...adrian went back...

7 smthing amelia,yie hang and me went back

reach hm damn hungry~

today...i just eat breakfast....until jz nw 8 smthing 9pm oni eat pizza....

DAMN HUNGRY!!LOL

tot i can keep fit...manatau eat pizza...

lagi gemuk!! T.T

~B@dgirlkar3n~

:( conflict with my emotion and feeling

2011-05-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

I don't know what I want now

I don't know what am I thinking

I don't know why am I emo now

I don't know why will u appear in my life

I don't know why God treat me like that

I don't know why is my mental so weak

I don't know since when I treat u as a big part of my life

I don't know why I still like u since u don't like me before

I don't know why I always like the guy that don't like me

I don't know why the guy I like always like my friend

WHY???!!! WHY???!!! WHY???!!! WHY???!!! WHY???!!!

U PISSED ME OFF!!!!!!

YOU MAKE ME EMO!!

YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU!!!

YOU MAKE ME REALISE THAT GUYS ARE ALL LIKE YOU!!!

YOU MAKE ME FEEL THAT YOU'RE THE BEST GUY THAT I'VE MET BEFORE

YOU MAKE ME DISAPPOINTED AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!

YOU MAKE ME START TO HATE YOU!!!

YOU MAKE ME TRY TO AVOID AND IGNORE YOU!!!

YOU MAKE ME DON'T TRUST MY FEELING ANYMORE!!!

YOU MAKE MY CONFIDENT LOW!!!

WHAT THE HACK????!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU!!!!

BUT I LOVE YOU!!!!

DAMN!!!

ahhhhh~I've conflict with my emotion&feeling!!!

so do u know what you've done to me?

YOU RUIN MY LIFE!!!!!

T.T

~B@dgirlkar3n~

must see!!!! :)

2011-05-04T00:38:00.001+08:00

got this fr one of my fren's blogg...damn...it's so true!!!!

1.就算，眼前的这个男人，千般好，万般好，处处是优点，他不爱你，这个缺点，你永远改变不了。

2.分手时，不哭。当然，不是要你一点都不哭。当着面，别哭，背地里，往死里哭。

3.一个人最大的缺点，不是自私，野蛮，任性，而是偏执的爱着一个不爱自己的人。

4.不管你的条件有多差，总会有个人在爱你。不管你的条件有多好，也总有个人不爱你。

5.抓住男人的不二法门，应该就是，永远不要让他满足。

6.打扮的再美，穿的再昂贵，那只是个幌子，用善良做的外衣才是真的美。

7.如果我们责怪爱情伤害勒我们，那请问，开始的时候是不是你点头答应爱情的来临，

8.能开口说出的委屈，便不是委屈。能离开的人，便不算是爱人。

9.所有爱着的人，爱过的人，都做着同一件事，犯贱。

10.心里能装着一些时间带不走的淡淡悲伤，也是一种幸福。

11.人永远是寂寞而自我的生物。无论多么真诚的说出自己的爱，也总会有无法被理解的心情。

12.不卑不亢，从容优雅，面对一切。

13.一个人，如果没空，那是因为他不想有空，一个人，如果走不开，那是因为不想走开，一个人，对你借口太多，那是因为不想在乎。

14.有的事情，没法说明。你觉得值，就值，你觉得不值，别人说值，你也觉得不值。

15.要明白一个道理，男人可是轻易的喜欢一个人，但不会轻易的爱上一个人。

16.女人，恋爱的时候，就像，与世隔绝般。

17.在风平浪静的日子里，留点空间给自己，留点空间给对方，留点美好给距离。

18.有的时候不要太计较，男人都有点粗枝大叶，忘了一件事，不代表他不爱你，别自己吓自己。

19.女人，往往喜欢坦白心事，男人，则恰恰相反。

20.有时候，学会把失望当次一种收获，因为有祈望，才会有失望。

21.女人的心慈手软，与男人的口是心非，成正比。

22.不要妄想试图改变谁，因为谁也改变不了谁，只有，他愿不愿意为你改变。

23.张爱玲说过，时间，可以了解爱情，可以证明爱情，也可以推翻爱情。

24.自由可贵，但是，每天数以万计的人，在用自由换取爱情。

25.你可以虚荣，因为，那是女人的天性，但，不要让自己变成为别人增加虚荣的工具。

26.不要说，这世上没个好男人了，不要去记恨那个抛弃你的人，毕竟曾经爱过你，疼过你，宽容会让你更美丽。

27.不要去好奇，不要去关心，他的现任女友长得如何，身材如何，你这样只是自寻烦恼罢了。

28.说过的话一定要做到，哪怕是很愚蠢的，也总比言而无信的好。

29.不要在你哭泣的时候，说气话，下决定，你会后悔的。

30.他说，我累了，让我冷静一段时间，好么？你就说好，因为，他是来通知你的，不是来征得你同意的。

31.你清纯就罢，你假装清纯，比丑还难看，明白么？

32.不是所有的努力都会成功，但是，不努力，就一定不会成功。

33.女孩子要自爱，不管你遇到多大的打击，不管你遇到的情况多么悲凉，借故堕落，也是堕落，越是不爱自己，越是没人爱你。

34.美貌，智慧，金钱，很多事，都是天生注定的，别想用你那嫉妒心，改变什么。

35.小心眼，嫉妒心，仇恨，报复，女人的伎俩不过如此，你要施展没关系，关系的是你别被人发现。

36.放好心态，失去的东西，不要悲伤，你就当，他本身就不属于你。

37.尽量做个优雅的女子。千万别做作，因为，做作的女人，不仅女人讨厌，男人更讨厌。

38.独立，永远。不管，感情还是金钱。

39.嗯，不要在哪几个场合相信男人的话呢？床上，他开心的时候，有求于你的时候，犯错的时候。

40.不要想尽办法的向很多人炫耀，你有很多男朋友或者男性朋友。因为，别人不仅不会羡慕你，只会看轻你。

41.不要整天问，你爱我么？当你问的时候，他就不爱你了。

43.20以下，你相信偶像剧，那就算了。 20以上，你还相信偶像剧，那就完了。

44.要知道，一个男人好与坏，不是看他花心还是专一，自古男人都花心，而是要看，有没有控制力。

45.有没有发现，往往刻骨铭心的爱恋。通常，没有好结果。

46.烟，和酒，从古至今，被公认为两大毒药。而对，女人，爱情这一样，足以致命。

47.勇敢的女人，永远比懦弱的女人美丽。如果，你的爱人不爱你，我劝你还是勇敢点分离，好过，懦弱的纠缠。

48.善于妥协的女人，很宝贵。但是，只善于妥协的女人，很廉价。

49.不要做女强人，要做强女人。

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Thomas&Jack...I LOVE YOU!!!!

2011-05-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

today had lunch with my maths and add maths tuition teacher

at Little Cottage

11.55am like dat reach teacher's hse

then she fetch us to Little Cottage...reach around 12.30pm

after dat she went to do smthing at Canon shop next to Little Cottage

around 3pm i reach hm...rest,bath and watch mv

then4.30pm headed to Zhen Guang Fo Dian...

then Pei Jun fetch me back to grandma hse and take shirt

(coz they didnt told me dat they change to other shirt d....zzz)

then after dat practise a while...then Cheng Im fetch me to buy food for students

6.30pm like dat go to Ma Fo Zong

coz today was sign language competition

7.30pm comp start d...

we lose....bt we din unhappy...

:) coz they really very geng!! :)

and we just practise once...LOL....no wonder lo hor?? :)

after comp....we go to Anson Road's KFC to have our dinner

Pei Hern treat us... :D

guess what??who I saw??

THOMAS&JACK!!!!

东于哲!!!!

i tot i saw the wrong people...manatau~

damn....wanna took picture with them one

but they "xie zhuang" d....so cnt

:( too bad~

but i do shake hands with them!!!!!!!

wahahahahhaha

but seriously...i'm nt joking...

even though they "xie zhuang" d....

but they still look damn cute and handsome!!!

:DDDDDDDD

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! <3

~B@dgirlkar3n~

a nice experience!! accident!!motorrrr T.T

2011-04-24T17:23:00.004+08:00

time to update blog again

if nt i'll fgt what had happen dis few days

~Fri~

morn woke up at 8 smthing,

after bath and eat breakfast...

9.45am went to dojo...

they gt training for grading....

so i jz went there to teman yie hang and adrian

bt i also gt help sir lar...

then after training end...did sm movement with yie hang....

huuu~NICE!!SWEAT!!

after dat around 1.10pm go back grandma hse...

bath and eat med d...

rush to fetch amelia to greenlane mcd for our study group

suppose 2pm start,bt we reach at 2.30pm

sry kie mun!! :(

after dat suk ching msg adrian and me...

asking us whether going to training anot..

actually after the study group,5pm,we plan to go training

manatau adrian says,ahbo skip lar...then both of us skip

suk ching also skip lor...haha

then we study until 7.10pm,i fetch amelia to church

then rush back to mcd...

around 8.10pm fetch yie hang to Island Park

i'm still....driver of the day!!

LOL

after dat went home!

~Sat~

woke up kinda late...

go back grandma hse d....

eat breakfast and watch mv...

after dat went to yen yee's hm around 1.35pm

then 4pm back to grandma's hse again...

4.45 go fetch yie hang and headed to adrian's hse

waited him for nearly an hour...

he said dat his ttn will end at 4.30....manatau 5.20 oni reach hm...

and our service starts at 5pm!!

6.05pm like dat we reach City Harvest Church...

well....we were very late!!!! :(

around 7.25pm finish....walked to Gurney

kinda near lar....6 of us...

me,amelia,yen yee,kie mun,adrian and yie hang

went to 600cc....

bt kie mun doesnt want to eat the food there

and i feel it's EXPENSIVE!!and small...

couldnt fill my stomach dat time...hmm

then we go out fr the shop,and went to Wong Kok

nice!!eat until 9.15pm...

amelia,yen yee and kie mun went to wait for amelia's sis

while yie hang,adrian and me went to sit rapid to komtar...

LOL

I'M HAPPY!!weee~

coz long time din sit bus d....around 1 year...haha

after reach komtar,around 10pm,we sit bus back to adrian's hse

then go up to his hse take helmet d...

we plan to go drink goat's milk at Air Itam pasar there

so we go to motor park and took our motor...

when i wanna go up time....POM!!!

i beng... T.T

too slippery i guess...then i ride too fast also

LOL

my motor "hua" le... :(

then one mirror broke...damn!!!

SAD dao~~~

my hand was bleeding....

use few tissues oni can stop the blood fr cming out fr my wound

:'( my motorrrrr.......damn~~my treasure leh!!!

T.T

after stop bleeding d...

we still went to Air Itam pasar for goat's milk

yie hang asked adrian to fetch me dat time...

and he'll ride adrian's motor there

bt yie hang rite??

dun have experience in riding motor at the road

so i say...better dun...later anything happen on him...

i'll feel more guilty...

coz i dont want anything happen on my frens d...

since it already happen on me...

reach goat's milk stall...

many ppl lor...full~

nid to walk across the road and there's a kopitiam

so we sit there....coz no place bside the road d...

then we talk talk talk...chat chat chat...

mum and dad called me....LOL

12 smthing i fetch yie hang back...then reach home around 1am...

faster go bath...dun dare to let parents knw i accident...

then 2 smthing near 3am slp...

~Sun~

5 smthing woke up d...cnt slp back...wait until 6am

morning call yie hang and adrian...

then go bath and ready everything.......

6.30 go to adrian's hse and then headed to yie hang's hse

after finish cooking breakfast,clean everything d...

i was fetching yh,go "pak u"

then back to my grandma hse....

coz i fgt to take my black belt...go take and change d...headed to petrol station again

dis adrian ah...jz nw dun wanna pak...nw ka wan...zzzz

then we headed to Kompleks Belia dan Sukan

reach there kinda late...lol

we faster change gi...then walk,sit,talk..

and brown 4 batch,nt enough ppl...

so i went to spare vf the girl

sensei chew asks me to gv the gal chance...

i ask her cm in,she dun dare...

so i attack her....bt din touch her la!

after dat i fight vf a little boy...

i asked dat guy to punch me....he also dun dare....

LOL

then i just jump jump jump...

finish time....adrian and yie hang said me

"why u bully the girl?"

i was like... :(

if i din do sm technique...later i kena scold

if i do,they say i bullied her... T.T

grading end around 3smthing...

adrian,yie hang and me went to tesco for our lunch??

LOL

bt yh didnt eat...then 4pm like dat fetch yh back to his hm...

then i went back to grandma hse and then my new hse

what a tiring dayyyy???!!

DAMN~~

my leg and hand start o cheh(blue black) and swollen d...

i think is bcz yesterday i beng... :(

hand no energy~~

p/s:later we're going to drink goat's milk again :)

bt i scare fetching ppl... :( coz motor macam gt prob d...

bt it's a nice experience...haha...luckily i din bang on the other ppl

so counted very lucky d...thanks GOD!!!

though i bleed,bt thx for letting my frens and I save ^^

~B@dgirlkar3n~

爱情路上能否 “值得” 或 “不值得” 来痕量？

2011-04-21T12:17:00.003+08:00

我。。。终于。。。病了！！

这就是我要的。。。

虽然很辛苦

可是我可以逃避啊。。。

逃避面对现实！

逃避看见你！

逃避看见你对她好！

说好了不管你，当你是普通朋友

可是，当你在的时候，我总是忍不住的偷看你！！！

关心你的一举一动

可能，这就是爱情美妙之处！~

我从不后悔喜欢上你。。。

更别说爱上你！

就算是暗恋你也好，

因为你总是带给我很多欢乐！

谢谢你哦！ ^^

可是到了这种程度。。。

我是否该放手了？？！

我们彼此都有着相同的难题~

都爱上了不爱我们的人啊！！！

其实啊，你很好！

真的~

我很欣赏你哦！

可是啊。。。算了。。。

。。。。。

我们可能就是有缘无分吧！！

有缘在几百万人里认识你，

当上了朋友，却无缘成为情侣！

有时还真想跟你说出真相~

说我是爱你的！

可是，到时候尴尬了，你就不会跟我讲你的事了

我很开心能成为你倾诉的对象哦~

以后有什么不开心的，都可以跟我讲！

别怕打扰我的~

因为能跟你聊天，我超开心的啊！！！

嘻嘻~

我很傻吧？可是爱情不就是这样罢了？

为了自己喜欢的人而担心~伤心~开心~懊恼~不爽~没心情~

可能这就是暗恋的幸福吧~

朋友都叫我放手了。。。

说我DESERVE A BETTER GUY！！！！！

说他不值得我去爱。。。

可是爱情路上，

哪里可以用 “值得” 或 “不值得” 来痕量的喔？？！

谁不懂要放手啊？！！！

我也想！!他也想！！！

可是我能咩？！我们能咩？！

才短短一个月多就爱你到酱深了？

妈的~我还真没用一下！！！！！！！！！！！！

很想你现在就SMS问候我一下噢

可是。。。哪里有可能啊？

我在你心里，根本连0.000001%的地位都没有！

我看还是算了。。。

还真不想希望越大，失望越大噢！

我会用这段时间慢慢想~

想看我是否应该 “继续喜欢你” 还是 “我真的该放手了”

~B@dgirlkar3n~

我不会放弃的！！

2011-04-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

有时。。。我还真不懂自己要什么~

以为自己长大了。。。会想了，可是啊。。。原来我还是那么的幼稚!!!

有时后，有些事不必讲出来的吧？

讲出来就没意思咯。。。对不对？^^

之前还有点烦~可是。。。现在我应该知道我自己要什么了

我不会放弃的！！！哇哈哈哈。。。

我不懂这是不是个好决定啦。。。

至少对现在的我是好的~

嘻嘻

希望我不会后悔。。。

~B@dgirlkar3n~

I'm jz a nobody

2011-04-15T21:46:00.005+08:00

It's my LIFEEEEE

seee~

i knw it...

smthing surely happen

and yea...it HAPPEN NOW!!

TODAY!!!

I'm seriously dull

u can see....my face changes

from...

:D --> :l --> :(

I dont understand....

why are these things happen on me

again again and again???!!!!

I SERIOUSLY FED UP D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DUN WAN FEELING ANYMORE!!!

I HOPE I WAS JUST A PERSON DAT DOESNT HAVE ANY FEELING

ANY FRENS

ANY FAMILY

I DUN WAN EVERYTHING!!!

WHY CNT ALL THESE THINGS JUST GET RID OF ME???!!!

T.T

I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M JUST A NOBODY...IN U'RE LIFE!!!!!

I DONT WANT TO TALK TO U ANYMOREEEEEEEEEE

NO MORE OUTING WITH U ALLL!!!!!

T.T

DIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO FGT U...

COMPLETELY~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

i'm crazy

2011-04-14T22:14:00.003+08:00

i've been updating my blog recently

coz i cnt find smone to talk to smtime

maybe gt...bt ...dunno why it's weird to tell smone dis

well...

I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!!!! :(

i cnt study..

i cnt concentrate in class

i keep on thinking of u

u...ya...U!! headache betul~

what u've told me....what u did...

is rolling inside my brain?

LOL

i dun like myself!

i hate myself!!

arrggg~

i dun like my attitude!!!

i dun like being emo!!!!!!

i dun like to bcm sad!!!

i wan...aiksssss

i wan to be a happy person that wouldnt have to be sad and cry!

can i??

i wan to... nth d...fineee~~~

i dunno what am i talking about also

dunno what i should write and what i shouldnt write?

am i doing the right choice ah? :(

i think no

should i listen to yen yee??

jz leave it??

who can tell me...duh!!!

i can even smile when my lecturer was teaching...

coz i think of uuuuuuu~ =.="

it shouldnt be so deep ah...

bt why am i falling deeper and deeper for u??

IT'S WRONG!!!!!!! :'(

T.T

~B@dgirlkar3n~

got a feeling that smthing will happen

2011-04-14T00:50:00.003+08:00

what to say??

tmr gt short test...

or should i say later,coz already pass 12am

but seriously...

i just dun hv the mood to study

i tot i would be happy??

yea..i'm happy!

but i'm scare too~

and the feeling make my face like dis --> :(

i scare that smthing will happen when i feel things are getting right

i dun wanna be emo because of u again

i hope i'll jz gt lots of laughter from u

hmmm....seriously!!!

u wont feel nice when u gt emo rite?

sm more i dunno why i emo....

jz in a second i can bcm emo....fr a happy person

what should i do??!!

T.T

i should be happy!!!

but...i really got a feeling dat smthing will happen

not a good feeling though....

:'( :'( :'(

it's 12.57am...

who should i text with?? no one :'(

~B@dgirlkar3n~

A busy + poor week ever!!!

2011-04-10T00:54:00.004+08:00

what a bz week

bz doing hmwork??

bz study for exam???

NAH!!

nt at all....zzZZZ

let me tell u guys wad i did dis week

~last Sun~

went to dojo to train for the competition

went there at 2pm...manatau shihan also go there and train

2.30 beng hee sir came to see us a while,then go back d

so adrian and i follow shihan's training...

it's hard....but GOOD!!!

amelia and yie hang came late..after finish training...

train little bit for the comp,then went to cheng beng at paya terubong

~Mon~

morn skip class,went to cheng beng,at bai yun shan

then back to cgl

go let pn salina certified my certificate,ic and results

then went to dojo to training...

girl's monthly prob came.....shit!!

~Tue~

went to college,then went home,

after dat go to msn for physical training...

after dat train for the talent show thingy....

neck swollen!!

damnnnn pain + tired!!!~~

~Wed~

morn go cgl help sir teach karate

then go home bath d go to college,

lunch time,wei xuan fetch me,zi wei and chin tatt to gurney's mcd to have our lunch

was late for ms.ngu's class

class until 4.15pm,

went home d change d go training...

train abit for the demo...go home bath...

then go farlim pasar malam with amelia,yie hang&adrian

back home around 11pm...

~Thurs~

college...class until 1pm

rush back home and do my eye lashes

then rush to adrian's hse

manatau he hvn came back =.="

wait under his hse awhile....saw him...

pt my bike at his hse

amelia's mum is fetching her there...

so after adrian's done everything,around 3pm,

yie hang came and fetch us to Amelia's church

at tanjung tokong there...

we practise for our demo thingy....vicky's helping us...

after finish practise,6pm,went to vicky's hse to bath

ready d 7.20pm like dat,she fetched us to Little Cottage 2...

where SAC's mini prom held

after we reached there,kam lam also reach

so 5 of us...amelia,yie hang,adrian,kah lam and I

enjoy the food and also enjoy ourselves there

well....our table is kinda lucky!!or should i say very lucky??

Yie Hang,Amelia and Kah Lam also got lucky draw...hmm..

NOT FAIR!!!! :(

after finish everything,around 10.40pm,mum came and fetch us back

~Fri~

morn follow mum go back to grandma's hse

then watch mv and wait for adrian to come back from home

he will be the one who decide whether

i will go to the cell group at amelia's church anot

coz my motor's at his hse...and i dun reli knw the road back

hmmmm....haha

2.30 like dat text me,ask me to reach his hse by 3pm,

bt dat time mum hvn came back

so we're late for the cell group at church

haha...we have 2 games...well....adrian kena forfeit by them... :D

after dat they talk bout the bible thingy....

although i dun reli understand,as i'm nt a christian

bt i try to read the chinese part lar....and try to understand

it's kinda fun...knw sm new stuff :)

after cell group,we practise for the comp thingy,until 6pm

then adrian and me ride to gurney

while yie hang and amelia walk to there

we eat at BAR-B-Q...a new thai shop

IT'S FUN!!

and i'm kinda full...but unfortunately...

amelia and yie hang were still hungry after we eat...

what a big stomach they got!!! =D

after dat went home...

~Sat~

12.20pm go to cgl fetch amelia back to her hse and bath

when i want to on9,yen yee call her and said dat she missed the bus

so i rushed to sch and fetch yen yee back to her hm to bath

around 1.50pm,fetch yen yee to adrian's hse

then i go fetch amelia from her hse to adrian's hse again

well....I WAS THE DRIVER OF THE DAY!!!! ZZzzz

3pm like dat yie hang come and fetch all of us to church

then we practise a while,thn go down to 2nd floor...where the comp will be held

then we wait there....4pm started...gt 5 team and we were team no3

i was damn nervous....bt luckily...

we manage to go into FINAL!!! :D

so we're competing with other team on 6th August

need to be more ready lur.... :)))

after the talent show,they gt service

starts by singing few songs

well...everyone enjoyed it....at least i enjoyed it! :D

after song then the pastor have a talk??haha...nt sure lar

well...the pastor was damn funnyyy

and what he says were kinda true

hmmmm

after dat,vicky fetch us to Spring Cafe to have our dinner??

(it should be lunch :D)

after dat we walk to Island Plaza to sit sapu car back to adrian's hse

then i fetch yie hang back d....cm back and fetch amelia

adrian fetch yen yee

we all go to yen yee's grandma hse 1st....put her

then i fetch melia back to her hse...

(hmmm......

I WAS SERIOUSLY DAMN PEK CHEK!!!

dis adrian ah....go down from yen yee's grandma hse time

lap like a siao lang...

ma de....the road is so STEEEPPPP!!!

damn him!!! later sud gt 1 dog,car or motor cm out,he couldnt brake in time

then hw???why dun he think dat???Zzzz

scolded him....and left angrily!!!)

~B@dgirlkar3n~

unluckyyyy

2011-04-04T22:21:00.002+08:00

well

what an unlucky day??

why muz we girl...ehem ehem??

=.="

seriously...it isnt fair!!

AT ALLLL!!!

T.T

pain~~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

emo-laughte-,fun-emo-laughter :)

2011-04-01T22:13:00.004+08:00

yesterday go watch mv

HOP!!!! :D

with amelia,yie hang,adrian,kah lam and vicky(amelia's fren)

well...mv was damn FUNNY!!!

CUTE!!!

KAWAIIIII!!! :)

CHICKEN BUNNY!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

after mv,kah lam and vicky went back d

so amelia,yie hang,adrian and me

went to prangin,home recipe to have our dinner

chat,eat,laugh...it's FUN!! :)

i guess...yesterday was the HAPPIEST day in this week

coz i've been emo for few days...

hmmm....

#####

today-back to emo again...

actually...i'm kinda excited to go training...

manatau........

end up....T.T *CRY*

i'm nt sure i'm too pressure??!!!

or sad???!!!

or maybe both!!!!

maybe dis kind of pressure let me grow...

well....human need pressure to grow....

i understand...SERIOUSLY!!!

bt it has been a long time i din cry during training d

LOL

feel dat i'm quite USELESS larrrr

jz nw i promise sensei...i will get GOLD for next year's SUKMA

I CAN ONE!!!SHIN YEEEEEEE....

YOU CAN ONE!!!!

dun let urself down!!!!dun let ppl laugh at u!!!!

DO UR BEST!!! :)

my self encouragement....

but after a bad dreams,i've lots of LAUGHTER...

FRIENDS were SWEETS to my life!!!

well....they've been cheering me up all the time

making fool of themselves just to let me laugh/smile

listen to me when i need a listener

never told ppl my secret and try to calm me

I APPRECIATE IT ALOT!!!REALLY!!!

u guys are GREAT!! i will never forget u all... :) :) :D :D

~B@dgirlkar3n~

let u be part of my memory....in my life

2011-03-30T20:30:00.003+08:00

hmmm

i think i should concentrate in karate and my studies

ONLY!!!

i hope i can do it larrrr

well...i think i can!hope i can..........

since it doesnt work...

i will just let it be part of my memory in my life...

i guess it's the only way for me to live in a normal life...

hmmmm

LOL

(xiao de hai zhen xing ku)

~B@dgirlkar3n~

sry wei

2011-03-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

are all the gals like me??

easily emo?

easily moody?

easily angry?

and also easily happy??

what the hack i'm doing jz nw??

why am i so easily influence by other ppl??

what happen to me??

i tot i wouldnt have dis kind of feeling again d...

tot i grw mature d??

i'm 18!! I'M already 18!!! LOL

sry wei...i din mean it...

SORRY!!!

shin yee ah shin yee...change pls!!

CHANGE!!!

luckily i gt smone to talk to... :)

can blahhhh everything out...

ahbo i dun think i can slp tonite....

hmmmmmm

thx!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

:(

2011-03-26T23:46:00.002+08:00

ahhhh

what should i say??

we're so DIFFERENT!!

bt why will i have dis kind of feeling for u.???zzZZZ

IT SHOULDNT HAPPEN!!!!!!

i knw it's kinda weird...

and i dun blif it at the beginning...

bt then the feeling tell me dat it is true....

WTH???!!!

ur making me crazy... =.=

i need to make mysef bz just to forget u...

why is my life always like dat??

one's over and another one come again~

man!!y god wanna treat me like dis?? zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

~B@dgirlkar3n~

damnnnn

2011-03-22T23:12:00.001+08:00

How can I got dis feeling for U?? :( it shouldn't happen!!! :(((

谁能叫我怎么做啊？？

2011-03-14T23:55:00.003+08:00

在这里...

想跟阿SIR和全部支持我的人说声...

对不起！！！

我令你们失望了！！！

比赛前，我跟自己讲过...输赢不重要

只要我尽了全力，做到最好，输了也没关系

因为我已经尽力了...

可是这场比赛，我没有！！！

我不止输了这场比赛...我还令全部人失望了！！

我的对手，根本不算什么...

可是我怎么会输呢？？？！！！！

我怎么就突破不了自己？？

我只要再快一点，

进final对我来说，应该不算什么东西！！！

做么我没有用比赛前一天跟Adrian练的technic？？！！

我是怎么啦？？！！！

第二场比赛赢后，我哭了...

不是因为开心...是因为我还是很慢！！！

我对自己很不满意！！！

第三场输了...也哭了！！！

不是因为输了而哭，而是因为，我又在令阿sir失望了！

对不起！！！

我很生气我自己!!!!！！！

怎么到了最后关头，

最后一年的MAKAF junior，

我还不能打得快一点，不能赢金牌！！！

可能...我就是没打kumite的potential！！！

我应该继续练习吗？？?

还是我应该放弃了？？?

我还输得起吗？？

我还喜欢空手道吗？？

我应该努力读书？？

还是继续我当初的理想，去追逐我的梦想？？

我不懂...真的好烦！！！

我相信，除了自己，是没有人能给我答案了！

比赛前和后，打算这次是我人生中，最后一次的比赛了~

可是突然有个冲动，想每天去练习，

想进步，想痛痛快快的打一场，

证明我是能的！！！！

可是，我能吗？？

我能做到吗？？

我能赢吗？？

每次当我的希望越大时，

都会跌到最底，让我失望更大！！！

很难爬得起！！！

。。。

谁能教我怎么做啊？？

好烦噢！！！

~Badgirlkar3n~

MAKAF-21th 2011-Kuala Lumpur

2011-03-14T22:25:00.003+08:00

*10/3/2011-Thurs,nite*

around 9pm,went to green lane mcd to wait yie hang

saw adrian there,later on yie hang reach d

his aunt fetch him,me,amelia and adrian go to suk ching's hse

reach her hse around 10pm

then go up her hse and wait her do her stuff

damn long~wait until around 10.45pm

then we walk to mcd....

suk ching says dat the mcd was very near to her hse

i dunno where izit...bt i trust her...

so we start walking....walk into USM...walk...walk...walk...

call wei han sir and see whether he can fetch us go anot...

bt he says he's in Gurney dat time...will come late...well...fine then

see my phone,it's already 11.30pm,bt WE STILL HAVEN'T REACH!!

i regret that i trusted her!! :@

luckily we saw wei han sir after dat...then he fetch us to the mcd

my gosh~~it was SO FAR away from suk ching's hse!!!

if we were to walk,i dun think we can reach by 12pm

then we order food....

saw Sabrina working there!! damn happy~

long time din see her ady :)))

while we sitting in the mcd and talking,

wei han sir told us bout the fighting technic and so on

though he's weird...bt it was fun!! :)

about 1.25am aneh...wei han sir fetch us back to suk ching's hse

then i go online for a while...then we plan to slp d

dat nite...we slp at sc's hse living room

amelia and yie hang slp on the sofa

while me,suk ching and adrian slp on the floor

well....i din slp for the whole nite! so do adrian...

coz he was hitten bu sc when he was asleep

*11/3/2011-Friday,morning*

yie hang and amelia set their alarm,

they wanna wake up at 3am

bt in the end...they slp until 3.30am

bt adrian and me woke up b4 3am....he go wash her face and so on...

then i go brush my teeth and ply rubik's cube

after everyone was awake...bath...change...

around 4.45am,sc's dad fetch us to KBS to wait for the bus

wah!reach there time alot of ppl already there

in the bus...i sit with sc....

around 5.30 we go to butterworth to fetch ppl from there

then go to KL....reach Tapah around 8.40am...

have our breakfast d continue our journey

whole journey...i cnt slp!!! T.T

reach KL at 11am like dat...

very early!!!then we go to the hotel and weigh in

after that went to our hotel,De First In to check in

Amelia,Kie Mun and me slp in 1 room 310...

then go to have our lunch at KFC....

after dat back to hotel to play...haha...

kah lam,adrian&yie hang cm to our room

then we went to their room

after dat they come to our room again....

sir says got training at nite...bt dunno what time..

so we was waiting...waiting and waiting...

dun dare to slp pun...in the end...

sir call us and ask us to have our dinner and cm back at 7.45pm

but dat time already 7.10pm,and we hvn inform everyone...

we went to Old Town for our dinner...19 of us... FUN!!!

then we go lobby....for meeting...sir gave us the name tag and so on..

ask us to sew out number to our gi

OMG!!everyone is bz....

some go buy water...some go buy needle,thread&gum

after dat,we split into 2 teams...

one team(our team) sew numbers

while the other team stick our photo to the name tag

around 10am finish bz-ing...then everyone go back to their room bath&slp

slp around 11pm

*12/3/2011-Saturday,morning*

woke up at 6.30am,

after amelia and me go bath d,

we go down to lobby around 7.20am to have our breakfast

reach Stadium Titiwangsa d,we go find a place and sit down,

then start warming up and stretching,

after that we sit there and cheer for the kata team

we...me,suk ching,amelia,kah lamadrian,cindy,rou yi,

ip,jonathan and janyse was chatting too

then we suan siao lai suan siao ki....especially with dis adrian... =.="

kie mun,yie hang,doreen,yu chow,han tiong and few ppl fight on dat day

alot of prob dat day...kie mun can gt cold medal one...

bt the stupid refree.....arggg~politic prob!!!! :@ :@ :@

yie hang also lose...he cried...i knw he was super sad...

han tiong and Edward got gold... :)

kata also got few ppl gt gold and silver...congrats to all of them!

then gt opening ceremony....gt few finals too

after finish everything,we went back to the hotel and eat

i dun feel well as i shout too much d...

after back to hotel...they went to eat bah kut teh,

amelia go to Old Town,then go back to hotel to eat,

after dat we chat,play poker,and training...

train until 10 smthing....sensei steven is here to check whether we slept d anot

everyone run like hell....go back to their room and slp

we bath d...slp around 1am

woke up few times during midnite,coz i cough

*13/2/2011-Sunday morning*

6pm woke up d,go brush my teeth,was face and bath

then amelia finish bathing d,we pack all our things,

ask the guys to take bottles of water for us...

then we went down to the lobby tgt

then have our breakfast...

8am start go to the stadium again

then go warm up and do streching again,then did some technic

then start go to weigh in d....

amelia got gold!! wheee~~

then kah lam and ip gt bronze

kah lam was super sad...

adrian lose....i'm sure he's sad too....

his opponent was a very big size guy... kesian him

then my competition start...

won 2 roundsthe 2nd round win time i also lose...coz i was so slow...so stress

3rd round...aiks..lose by 1 point nia...

sir says dat i should win her one...bt i was slow!!

i cried very long...more than half an hour i guess

thx cindy,kie mun and amelia for cheering me up

i cried is not bcz i lose...it's bcz i din put 100% effort...

if i can do abit faster...i got confident dat i can go into final....

i feel so sry for sir....coz i make him dissapointed again

SORRY SIR!!! :(

really sorry....after competition,we walk outside the stadium

then go back and support our team mates again

though i'm sad...but i cnt din support my team mates!!!

eleena gt silver... :(

after prize giving,we walk to the place where the bus wait us....

then back to Penang

in the bus time,sm were slping,sm were watching mv,sm were chatting and so on

we stop at Tapah for our dinner,eat KFC again...

bt no chicken,just mash potato..coz i was coughing badly

after dat...went back to the bus....cough cough and cough...

feel like want to vomit...luckily they stop to put Edward in Juru,i guess

then i quickly ran to the toilet to vomit...

nearly die....headache....sore throat and cough sm more

then back to penang....fetch suk ching,yie hang,adrian and amelia back to their home

then i bath d went to slp d....

phewwwww~

SUPER TIRED!!!

8.45am wake up d,go back grandma hse slp again,until 2.30pm like dat

then come back new hse...

4pm oni eat my breakfast..which was STEAMBOAT!!! :)))

dats the end~~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

我的心情

2011-02-12T21:57:00.007+08:00

开始学会不再怨天尤人

因为想通了

每个人都该有他自己的命...

有些人是好的,

有些人却是坏的.

学会接受...

应该就不会想不开了吧?

可能~

说很容易hoh??

做很难leh....

#####

做人最痛苦...

莫过于找不到人诉苦吧??

那我现在应该是最苦的时后咯!!!

学业??感情???友情????

全都没!!!!!!!!!!

应该是我的错吧??

是的！我错了!!!

还错得很离谱呢!!!!!

可是一切都太迟了吧???

我一辈子...最自豪的...

应该就是F1拿数学奖的时后咯!!!

哈哈...

原来我这十七年零两个月零六天...

都是白活的!!!

虽然这样...可是我不会看不开o!!!

只要接下来的日子，

我都活得好好的，精彩的...

那不就好咯!!! :)

我又讲到酱爽咯........

我知道!!可是谈何容易!!!

而且...希望越大，失望越大!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

~B@dgirlkar3n~

1st&2nd day of CNY!!!

2011-02-06T00:58:00.005+08:00

1st day of CNY,

midnite....all of us play fire crackers!!

whole flat!!!at my grandma hse mia.....

PIANG PIANG PIANG PIANG!!!!!

here piang finish then there piang then here piang again~

was so FUN!!!!

I LOVE IT!!!

even though abit smocky and smelly

after that go back new hse

the next day....woke up early....

follow parents go down grandma(dad's side) hse again

SLEEP!! :D

then afternoon...around 12pm...

go to bro's godmother hse....take ang pao!!

then go to grandma(mum's side) hse....

take ang pao d go to pek gong's hse....

2.30pm like dat do sushi!!

eat until all of us SCARED!!!!

4 smthing 5pm go back....sleep....

then mum cook and i do sushi again....

eat reunion dinner dat nite!!

go back new hse...

slp at 3am....watch movie(tong yan&shao lin) :)

###

2nd day of CNY,

woke up early....

go back grandma hse and slp again...

10 smthing woke up...

help parents to prepare food for steamboat

then watch mv...wait all my uncle,aunt

cousin,cousin-in-law,nephew,niece to come

after they come they gamble...

then my ah so's frens also come and gamble...

hse was so PACK!! and i was MAD!!

i knw i shouldnt be mad....

but i cnt stand the environment dat time

cnt even walk...

cnt even SIT!!!

parents advise me nt to be mad...ok...chill sy~

the adult stop to gamble d....

around 5pm..ah so's frens went back....

other relative also come....gamble again!

around 7pm....i was moody!!!!!

dunno why...bt i try to chill myself....

7 smthing start steamboat...

everything end on 10 smthing

after cleaning up

*thx aunt and cousin sis for helping us to clean after eating*

bath d....went to aunt's hse to GAMBLE...

go back new hse around 12.30am

i wanna ply longer...bt bro and ah so wanna go back d... :((

slp around 4am...watch mv(bruce lee)!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Happy CNY 2011

2011-02-06T00:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!!!

hope 2011 will be a great year for all of us!!

all got good health!!!!!

good wealth!!!!

good luck!!!

good studies!!!

good job!!

well....just finish T1 test last tues....

i got 98% :D

not bad la...bt careless mistake!!!

I SHOULD GET 100%!!!!!

dis morn went to yen yee's grandma hse

chat and walk vf her....

not bad....quite fun pun...haha

bt her grandma hse's road was very steep!!!!

then 3am go yong qiang hse....

follow him to jian rong's hse

LOL

another one....the road very STEEP!!!

abit SCARRY though~

jr's mum gv me an ang pau~ :D

then jr fetch us to suk ching's hse....

take ang pao!!

got 3!!! :DDD

after that go to qb

watched Green Hornet

was a NICE movie!!

jay chou was super SUPER YENG in dat mv!!!

:))

after dat go back jr's hse....

fetch suk ching to my hse for steamboat

while jr go to dinner and qiang go to work...

ko lien yong qiang~~~

well....today was FUN!!!!! :)

spm end...college's life start d

2011-01-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

finally

i can update my blog d

phew~

spm alrdy over!!

and college start d...

study CAT(certified accounting technician)in Disted

well..college's life is not dat nice

more stress than secondary sch time

coz if fail in college...

i'll need to pay again and re-test

bt in sec sch....

fail everytime also no one will care

nah~

dats the different!!!

in sec sch...many frens....many classmates...

bt in college....in my class....there are only 7 of us

2 gals 5 boys...

BORING!!!

the lecturer said dat mostly CAT less guy more gals eh

our badge so SPECIAL!!!

ZZZZZ

everyone in my class were so serious!!!

jz the beginning of my college's life bt i'm already stressing nw!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

lol.....

2010-10-14T10:03:00.003+08:00

41 more days....

if i'm nt mistaken

well...

i think...

WE'RE ALL NOT READY FOR IT YET!!

SPM!!!

KILLER!!!

sob sob

#############

btw....

my home is going to have wedding ceremony soon

yea...

2 months and 4 days more....

wheee~

though its weird....

but i'll be HAPPY!!!!!!!

hope u'll be safe&happy too~~~~~~

wheeeeeeeeeee :)))))

~B@dgirlkar3n~

what a "lucky" day??

2010-09-25T13:09:00.003+08:00

WHAT A "LUCKY" DAY???

physical test-yoyo test FAIL!!!!

go tesco.....my JAX helmet LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ma de

angry si wa!!

kek sim si wa la!!!!

if i knw who stold my helmet...i'll let the ppl try my kick!!!

T.T

need to buy need helmet....

hope my dad wont scold me lor....

zzz

~B@dgirlkar3n~

trial start d lo~

2010-09-21T18:15:00.004+08:00

today is the 2nd day of trial

finish bm and eng paper d

huuuu~

8 more subjects to go!!!

including sivik

tmr moral paper.....LOL

lucksssss everyone!!

HOPE IT IS EASY!!!!

thurs is maths.....haha....maths....

FINALLY!!!

got a subject that i like d eh!!!

:DDDDD

everyday study will siao eh leh

everyday write hand will patah eh leh

wahahha....finally can use my brain to count d...

after stop using my brain for few days....

hope it still working!!!

:))

########

jz nw "bao" shui gao vf my dad

very fun o

and very DELICIOUS also

haha....

unfortunately....u guys no luck to taste it.....

wakakakkaka

got to go d lo.....need to go back and study moral d

~B@dgirlkar3n~

keep thinking of u :))

2010-09-15T19:21:00.004+08:00

jz nw 1.30pm went to account's tuition

did the test

hooo~

sm i reli dunno

bt sm was quite ok la

erm...i manage to do my document in 45 minutes...

counted ok d,rite?? xD

i use total 2 hours to do 5 question~~~~

i think less than dat...wakakakaka....

including today...go for exercise for 4 days d lo....

bit tired~bt need to continue lo...

hvn push to maximun yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~~

herm...dunno what happen to me??

dis few days....keep thinking of u...

haha....feel like i'm an idiot nia...bt...

LOL

nth d....no one will understand...

wakakakakak

~~~

trial is jz around the corner...

guess what?

I HVN STUDY!!!!

good rite??die d lo dis time....

wish me lucksssssssssss laaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

12/9/2010-Hiking@Botanical Garden-Penang Hill

2010-09-12T15:25:00.005+08:00

long time didnt blog le

so i'm going to blog today!! :D

today woke up at 6am

1st thing i did b4 brushing my teeth was....

morning call suk ching!!!

LOL

then bath and ate my breakfast

which was...2 bananas and a cup of milo :)

then chin jet phone me and said dat he reached botanical garden at 5.45am

== rite??

so i straight away pia go there

manatau the road there change d....i go in the wrong road....

== sir saw sm more...sia sui si!!!

so chin jet,me,beng hee sir and kah lam's fren

was the one who reach there 1st

followed by kie mun....juan kwong...kah lam...amelia....yie hang and sukching(as usual...still the latest!!)

we start walking up at 7.20 like dat

reach bottom of the stairs.....SAW A HUGE SPIDER!!!

KEK KI!! [coz couldnt take a photo of it]

then walk the stairs...OMG!!DAMN TIRING~

reach 46~rest a while....

SAW A VEGETARIAN DOG!!

(1st time in my life i saw a dog eating grass ....AMAZING!!)

after rest walk up again...

reach 84....rest~drink vitagen given by suk ching

then walk up to penang hill

YEAH!!I'M THE 1ST ONE TO REACH PENANG HILL

*perasan*

after dat of coz call my favourite food la!!

ABC(ice kacang) :DDDDD

then eat a plate of nasi lemak....

and this time....sir suddenly....ah~~~

i'm sure u guys dunno what happen.....

nearly A RULER LONG CENTIPEDE is at sir's bag

luckily didnt bite him

SO LUCKY LA U SIR!!! :)

but scared all of us leh~

after dat suk ching and me went to the indian temple and pray

after kah lam they all finish their food...

they also find us there...

took some picture :)))

then walk down d...reach around...12.30pm??

then chi kek la!!

i fetch amelia.....suk ching fetch yie hang....

WITHOUT HELMET!!to Gurney!!

wahahahahah....

scared si wa lang~

then me,amelia,sukching,yiehang and beng hee sir go to A&W......

GOSH!!!!

food there is so EXPENSIVE&SMALL!!!! zzzZZZZ

after dat walk for a while then go back d lo....

a very FUN OUTING!!!!SUPER FUN!!

THOSE WHO DIDNT GO....U ALL MISSED IT LO!!!!

:DDDDDD

~B@dgirlkar3n~

without enemy i couldnt improve

2010-09-10T11:19:00.003+08:00

without an enemy...

i couldnt improve

so....

i need to treat u as my enemy!!!

no more playing for me...

i'll jz do my best during training~~~

no more talking!!!

dis is the reason why i dun wan to go morning class last week

bt next week tue i will go la...

since school's going to start soon...

i'll try to go morning next week...

dis sun is the hiking activity d...........

will be the last activity for me b4 my trial and spm

i guess....

lucksssssss to all form 5

dat hving trial on 20 sept!!!

do ur best and leave no regrets!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

I CARE!!I REALLY DO CARE ABOUT IT!!

2010-09-04T15:54:00.002+08:00

i tot i've been telling myself not to compare with those ppl

but still....

feel sad....

why must i really care what the others say??

no matter what...

i knw i wont be like them...

FOREVER wont bcm like them

what is the point then?????

i sad for what??!!

i think

it's BCOZ I CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I REALLY CARE!!!

zzzzzzzz

i think the reason i cnt improve is bcz of my mental

and of coz....i cnt find back those feeling...

those fighting spirit that i feel i have last time

WHY??

i also dunno why!!

arrggggg~few more months!!!

left few more months nia

i cnt even PUNCH!!

*wtf*

argggggg~[screaming]

should end my post here.....no mood to blog

~B@dgirlkar3n

all the pics

2010-08-25T13:09:00.003+08:00

lazy to post all the pictures d

if u guys wanna c wad's going on dis few months

and wanna c the photo

go to

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=708217360

then u can c all the piccas d!!!

3njoy :)))

~B@dgirlkar3n~

dun ride if u dunno how to

2010-08-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

DUN RIDE MOTOR IF U DUNNO HOW TO RIDE!!!

BLOCK PPL'S ROAD~

ZZZZZZ

STAY AT HM LA U~~~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

vomitttttttttt

2010-08-14T09:27:00.002+08:00

oh yea?

heard dat u 2 kisssssss~~

ewwwwwwwwww~

when i heard dat...i nearly vomited!!!!

mo gui chang!!

+o(

~B@dgirlkar3n~

no point making urself sad

2010-08-08T10:22:00.002+08:00

we dun nid to fight like a boy

COZ WE'RE NOT A GUY!!!

we just need to be ourselves

and i feel dat is enuf for us d

what for forcing ourselves till so tension???

and i'm sure.....

EVEN WE...GIRLS...DIDNT FIGHT LIKE A BOY...

DAT DOESNT MEAN DAT WE'RE WEAK!!!

we just fight in a different way

we still can be the successful one

i blif.....if we work hard....

we'll achieve what we want!!

i trust the GOD!!

if and only if we work hard....

no point for losing hope

no point for making urself so miserable~

WE CAN DO IT!!

coz we already did our best~

[at least i did my best d]

~B@dgirlkar3n~

glad dat u're nt the president....f**k

2010-08-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

oh yes

guess wad?

i would like to say 1 word to u

FUCK U!!!

u spoil my mood!!

I'M REALLY GLAD THAT U'RE NOT THE PRESIDENT

OF CGL KARATE CLUB!!

AND YA....U DUN DESERVE TO BE THE TREASURER AS WELL!!!

U'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO HAVE DIS POST~

AND U GRAB IT!!!

MOTHER'S DAUGHTER??

PLS LA

U TOT DAT U'RE SO GOOD????

HELLO~

UR MUM COME AND TALK TO THE TEACHER,K??

IF NOT U TOT U'LL HAVE DIS POST??

OPEN UR EYES AND SEE!!!

AND YA...UR BLACK BELT!!!!

BUT...

U'RE LIKE SHIT!!!

AND

I REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND WHY U WILL GT THE BLACK BELT??

I DUN PUT U IN MY EYES AT ALL!!!

FUCKER!!!

GUESS WAD??I HATE U~

IF U'RE SO GOOD....WHY ARENT U THE PRESIDENT??!!

MAYBE I'M NOT AS GOOD AS SM ONE

BT I FEEL I'M WAY BETTER THAN U!!!!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

IF U TOOK AGAIN BLACK BELT GRADING....I TELL U...

U WILL FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ASSHOLE!!!

and ya....i'm so HAPPY dat u're not chosen in the PKF selection

even kie mun better than u!!!!!

if u go to pkf....u're juz embarrasing urself!!

and mencemarkan nama sekolah as well

la la la la~

~B@dgirlkar3n~

so what if i'm not as good as the other??will stop compariing

2010-07-13T14:28:00.004+08:00

I'll never compare myself to other people d...

its enough for me to suffer from the envyness~

the jealousy....

the sadness...

the anger~

It's time to put a full stop there....

I'M TIRED!!

very tired over all those nonsence thingy

so what if others are thinner than me??

so what if i'm not pretty as the others???

so what if i'm not like the others' clever???

so what if i'm not as cute as them??!!

I AM WHO I AM!!

I WILL STOP COMPARING!!

AT LEAST IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL HAPPIER

LET ME FEEL DAT I'M STILL USEFUL~

i dun nid to be the best....

coz I'M ALREADY THE BEST...

to me....

so...pls dun compare me to the others!!!

coz i am shin yee!!!i'm not them!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

black belt grading like shit

2010-07-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

well

guess wad?

after 6 hours of waiting....

i think i'm too early to get black belt

I'M SUCKS!!!

if i've a chance...i rather re-test!!!

is better to re-test....and all ppl say wow....dis black geng

better than.....cheh!!so sai also cn get black

....

so moody now...

dun feel like talking to other ppl nw...

let me rest...

let me chill!!!!

sry for dissapointing u all.... SORRY!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

grading tmr!!

2010-07-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH~

I'M HAVING GRADING TMR!!

AND NW....

I FEEL LIKE...I'M GOING TO HAVE A FEVER SOON!!!

WTH??!!!

WHY SO UNLUCKY MIA???!!!!

ZZZZZZZ

hope i can passsssssssssssss

and to everyone....dat take grading

LUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

~B@dgirlkar3n~

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~

2010-07-06T13:37:00.003+08:00

I'm so HAPPY when i heard dat from u,kellie

i'm happy dat we dont nid to wait for the replies from the JPN

but now??

HOW??!!

I TOT EVERYTHING CAN BE SUCCESSFUL AFTER 2 YEARS OF PLANNING

WHY UNTIL NW THE COMPETITION ALSO CNT SUCCESS??

I CAN PROUDLY SAY~

IS NOT THE PRESIDENT'S PROBLEM!!

IS THE AJK AND THE TEACHERS PROBLEM!!!!

YA!!IT IS!!

I HATE ALL THOSE REASON

NEED TO TYPE OVER AND OVER AGAIN

SUCH A NUISANCE!!

WHY CNT WE JZ HAVE IT??

WHY MUST WE SEND THE LETTER TO JPN??!!!

WHY??

OTHER SCH ARE NOT SENDING

AND OTHER SCH'S AJK ARE SO COOPERATIVE!!

WHY CNT CGL HAVE DAT KIND OF AJK??!!

U ALL DUN LIKE ME TO BE THE PRESIDENT!!!??

TELL ME EALIER THEN~

I WONT RAMPAS UR JOB IF U WANT TO DO IT!!

JUST TELL ME 1 WORD...

AND I'LL RESIGN!!!

AND THE TEACHERS....

WHY CNT U BE A LITTLE COOPERATIVE??!!

U'RE DELAYING EVERYTHING!!

WHY U DUN WAN TO CHECK PROPERLY WHEN WE GV U THE LETTERS??

NOW ONI SAY WANNA C HANGE THIS AND DAT

WE HAVE LESS THAN 1 MONTH TIME TO PREPARE EVERYTHING

I'M VERY PRESSURE!!!K??

NOT ONI U...TEACHER BZ!!

BUT ME TOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL I'M MORE BZ THAN U

F**K U!!!

I CNT STAND U ALLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

disappointed!!

2010-07-03T23:07:00.003+08:00

i tot dat i can accept after a few month

but really so sry

i CANT MAKE IT!!

AND U!!

U DUNNO WHAT'S LOVE!!

100% SURE U DUNNO

U TWO JUZ LIKE SISTERS!!

NOT GF NOR BF

MAYBE U ALL DUNNO HW TO SPELL "SHAME"~

NO WORRIES...

U ALL WILL KNW 1 DAY

LIKE WHAT I SAY

NOBODY WILL REALISE THEIR PAIN UNTIL THEY BANG THE WALL

I'M SURE THAT U TWO IS GOING TO BANG THE WALL SOON!!

HAHA...TRUST ME ANOT??

MAYBE I'M BUSY BODY

BT...DIS IS WHAT U GUYS FORCE ME TO DO

THEN U'LL KNW WHAT'S THE FEELING WHEN U LOSE SMTHING!!

WAHAHAHAHAHA

I'M EVIL!!!

NOBODY CAN STOP ME FROM DAT...

YEA...NO ONE...

I'M...JUST DOING THE LAST THING AS A FREN OF U

NOT YOURS!!BUT HERS....

and u....make me disappointed!!!

lose hope on u d...

~B@dgirlkar3n~

Friendship quotations~

2010-07-01T16:38:00.002+08:00

just find some quotations from the net

gt few of them were nice!

wanna share with u guysssss

-------->

*A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway

*Friendship multiplies the good of life and divides the evil

*One who looks for a friend without faults will have none

*A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails

*The only way to have a friend is to be one

*Friendship needs no words...

*Every man passes his life in the search after friendship

*A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere

*A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature

*Your friend is your needs answered

*An honest answer is the sign of true friendship

*A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have

*NOBODY IS PERFECT UNTIL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM

~B@dgirlkar3n~

bad result!!

2010-06-25T13:13:00.003+08:00

result come out d

LOL

some result was good...like Maths,EA,Moral

but some was bad...

Add Maths,BI,BM,SEJ

Sci&Acc have not much different...so ok lor...

gotta work hard for ADD MATHS d!!

1st time getting this result...

argg~nvm la...

my fault...coz i dun really concentrate for add maths

over confident not good lor!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

完美并不美

2010-06-25T13:04:00.002+08:00

I've just listen to a song

MAN!!!

it's COOL!!!

it's TRUE!!!

完美并不美我们多虚伪

你让我的好变成一种罪

完美并不美当你爱了谁

我的完美也只是.......不完美!!!

~B@dgirlkar3n~

~Bravo!!!~

觉得自己的付出只是为了让你们开心。。。

避开就是唯一的办法吗?

dunno what new year is dis??!!

dun ban so fast la

muscles and stamina not up to the standard~

once a betrayer....u always are!

I STILL CAN GROW TALLLLLLLL!!!!

my face like horse face meh?

should stay on what we've choose~

phobia of physical test~

i wan CAMP!!!

Happy New Year 2012!!!!!!!!!

gonna be different in 2012!!

fat si liao la~

怀念~

da come!

“失去了回忆并不可怕~ 可怕的是无法面对~”

人与人之间。。。最好不要有误会啦！

should i see a phychologist?

妈的！

things i wanna do b4 i die

not to seek ur permission~

body pain!! :(

finish exam!pressure increase!comp coming!!!

po pi meee :(

fail my FAB T.T

*touched*

be in a relationship with the one we love,is the most wonderful thing in this universe!!!

happy 18th bday!!!

我会自己去找人教！！！！！

kan?? LOL

gg~

心酸~

心情好低落~

所谓的朋友！！！

why wanna compare us??

choose to stand alone~

God gives me the strength and power!

Happy Birthday CHCPG

原来你是生气我

U GUYS PISSED ME OFF!!

GOD~我知道您疼我！

Fasting&Prayer season start!!!!

我是一块没用的烂石头！！！

烦!

很久没酱开心了

why dun u trust me???

problemsss

pls bless me

我觉得。。。是时候。。。放句号了！！！！

难道“你”就看不出我是真的很喜欢他吗？

started my new life...today onwards!

AUDACIOUS!!

I AM WHO I AM ^^

Thanks Lord~ ^^

pls change my plan that u've planned~

fun weekend~

:( conflict with my emotion and feeling

must see!!!! :)

Thomas&Jack...I LOVE YOU!!!!

a nice experience!! accident!!motorrrr T.T

爱情路上能否 “值得” 或 “不值得” 来痕量？

我不会放弃的！！

I'm jz a nobody

i'm crazy

got a feeling that smthing will happen

A busy + poor week ever!!!

unluckyyyy

emo-laughte-,fun-emo-laughter :)

let u be part of my memory....in my life

sry wei

:(

damnnnn

谁能叫我怎么做啊？？

MAKAF-21th 2011-Kuala Lumpur

我的心情

1st&2nd day of CNY!!!

Happy CNY 2011

spm end...college's life start d

touched